a 30 day “self imposed compulsion” challenge
|Brandon P’naantan Pinkney|
as I sit here, a quarter to 3 in the morning, a thought about compulsions came to me. I’ve read numerous articles watched dozens of documentaries and interviews of people who live with these compulsions every day, yet no matter how much secondhand exposure I get to them, I still cannot understand them, as I myself have no compulsions I’m aware of. well other than bouts of singing when I’m alone.
so I thought "what if I tried to plant a compulsion on myself for a month?" this morbid curiosity will be the death of me one day, I tell you. so I’m playing around with the idea of trying to live with this lesser compulsion for 30 days and documenting it’s progression and affects on my everyday life. so far I’ve thought of (and it’s subject to addition)
-compulsion to draw/paint
I’m liking this list so far, and if any are implemented, it could yield very interesting results, the only problem being I’d have to convince myself that I absolutely MUST do these and remain in that mindset for 30 days. we’ll see if his sees application
I’d love to hear thoughts and ideas for this
I got one.
A compulsion to know what others are thinking about. Whenever you see a person and you wonder what they are thinking about, you ask them. Dont stop asking until you get an answer you feel is true. I usually wonder what my busdriver thinks of all the gravelooking passengers that enters and leaves the bus without a single smile…..
I also love the compulsion to give things away. Oh it would be so lifechanging! For better or for worse. I think for the better if one could just get out of this western material mindset.
i have been thinking also brandon of doing a new challange. that is to get rid of my compulsion to eat food that is not good for me and makes me fat.
it will be my compulsion to feel a new spring me!
ps i like the compulusion to sculpt and paint and dance. i already have that one.
|Brandon P’naantan Pinkney|
@stonedragon, the hot chocolate will miss you dearly and understands why you must have your alone time for now
also I was thinking about the compulsion to teach/guide the youth…if I can figure out how to avoid that line separating good and wholesome from creepy
I really cannot imagine you would be able to ‘evoke’ some compulsion in yourself ‘just like that’. Compulsion are obsessions which have evolved and developed throughout many years. You can definitely try to ‘evoke’ one of those compulsions, but it will never be as a real compulsion, which is something pathological in my opinion. Therefore you will not be able to experience the real issues that compulsions bring with them. I can be completely wrong about this, but since I have been, and still am, facing compulsions of my own, and know how difficult it is to get rid of them, I can tell that it is really not something you would want to evoke in yourself. Be happy you do not have any compulsions/obsessions, it is not something which adds something positive to your life.
|Brandon P’naantan Pinkney|
@Filip. of course I know that I could never fully understand the various factors (debilitating or otherwise) of real compulsion as I have none but through this I’m trying to gain some nugget of understanding of it however small it may be . that said I feel for you, I could not imagine having to deal with what you go through in life but I feel I must do this for me. and to that I mean no offense to you or others in your place and I hope you don’t see it that way or that I am in some way invalidating or making light of your struggles, as that is not what I’m trying to do . but nonetheless you have my best regards.
this change in perspective as far as life is lived will without a doubt stick with me
Planting a compulsion is easy. Easier than removing one thats for sure.
Jus gotta be persistent at first.
Dont fool yourself sayin you dont have compulsions. Thats just denial. Everyone has compulsions an its impossible to live without em. But you can decide what your compulsions will be. As long as youre aware an pay attention instead of denying.
Being alive as a human is just a longass chain of compulsions.
I did not intend to sound like I am some kind of victim, please do not get me wrong. I am not experiencing any extreme obsessions/compulsions, nor am I classified as somebody with OCD, I was only referring to some recurring obsessive/compulsive thoughts which sometimes affect my daily life in a way I would not want them to affect it, but it is not something that is really disturbing. It is also not something other people are aware off, they are just thoughts that come back every day, and ‘haunt’ me, even though I know they are ‘unrealistic’. What I mean by this is that those thoughts are not defining me, or something like that. Hope you get my point in this.
I understand your intentions, and I think there is a lot of courage needed in order to take a challenge like this, so you have my blessings in this, and I wish you luck in trying to experience this. But honestly I would have no clue how you could evoke these kind of obsessive/compulsive thoughts, since I have not found a way yet to get rid of them, or deal with them. I hope that by meditation I will be able to learn to deal with them in a better way, but I do not think they will go away for ever. Just like one can learn to deal with the death of a close friend/family member, others can not. I think it is similar with these kind of obsessions/compulsions.
And I am definitely not offended, I was just trying to explain how this works in my opinion, I can be completely wrong of course, so please keep us posted of your ‘progressions’ towards this, because I am curious if you can really achieve something like this (especially in a short period of time)
And yes Pata I agree with you, I think everybody has some sort of compulsions, even if it is a very very very mild form.
@stonedragon… you’re not going to eat sugar but you’re going to have a diet thats 50% fruits and juice? good luck w/ that.
Also, you have a large misunderstanding of basic nutrution if you believe fats are bad for you. I’d suggest doing some serious research on nutrution before attempting to cut out what it “bad for you”.
ah compulsions my dear friends are something i live with daily and they keep my boat afloat as it were. i go from one to the next.. last year i had a intense cyber relationship with an old lover who i hadnt seen for 30 years. we emailed and chatted all day and nite for nearly a year!! boy am i glad that is over.we never met up by the way. he told his wife about it finally.
seriously tho. this week im doing a chosen compulsion to eat raw. i went out and bought 100 bucks of fruit and vege today. and just munched a big salad now, i decided i will still do the night splif tho.
gonna get this fat ass of mine, down to a spring time size!
thank you james. actually fruits and raw vegies will cleanse me. i have done this type of cleanse before. i will do the salads for three days, then just juices for three days, then back to the salads. at the end i will feel light and i will have broken some of my bad habits. like devouring large lindt chocolate bars in one go. that kind of thing. and all those french cheeses. it is spring time.
@Filip Mild? Mos people have tons of very severe compulsions. Nothin mild about it. An look at the very basic stuff like eatin an sleepin. Its all compulsion of the most serious kind an its somethin people just have to do.
Planting a compulsion is easier than I say. Repeated thought + repeated action + some time = bam you made yourself a new compulsion. That simple. A compulsion is just a thought of need or desire that you think over an over again. Thats all it really is.
Ever hear those big shots talk about their self made positive obsessions an all that? This is what theyre sayin. Jus set your mind on it an youre done.
pata. good explaination. i hope it will be as easy as that. tell my paul mason stomach that…!!!!
No doubt there is a benefit to that kind of thing (personally, I tell anyone and everyone I can to give intermittent fasting a shot. Health wise it is the most fantastic thing I’ve ever done)… You just seemed to be implying fats were bad for you, while that is not true assuming you are sticking to the healthy fats.
Fruits, veggies, fats, etc, all have a place… It’s all about portion size and balance imo (and eating the right kinds of sugars and fats and what not).
But for short term changes in diet, its certainly an interesting thing to experiment with different types of diets (60-80% healthy fats for a week, all raw like you’re doing, heck, go on a 4-5 day fast… anything and everything to help you get to understand yourself better is a good thing imo).
@stonedragon It WILL be that easy unless you sabotage.
thanks for believing in me guys. i will think of you on my excersize bike. send me music!
I have to compulsively give my opinion. I have been working on that (believe it or not!). I now do not respond to anything in fb and even in HE, I stop myself from always commenting.
Give your opinion pat. compulsory of not. i love your comments. you seem so wise and to the point. express it girl!
How is it going Brandon?@hlalhabattu,
|Brandon P’naantan Pinkney|
actually it hasn’t yet,@martijn. I’ve decided to start once I’m done with my lent of giving up complaint, which by the way is an interesting process. the forcing of myself to be aware of my mood in respect to conversation and general life experiences feels very strange, yet at the same time it slips my mind that I’m doing it, so quite often I find myself running check-ins so that the memory that I’m actually doing this stays fresh.
that says, come easter I’ll start my compulsion challenge, which will be chosen the day of
I’m really looking forward to it though
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