My friend and I smoked a large bowl of this REALLY potent pot (the same strain I broke my pot virginity with). I have always had disquieting existential thoughts when I’m stoned, but this was on a completely different level. I felt so mortal. Like a specimen, and nothing else. I was shocked that all of me was contained in this flesh animal body. We got in the car and I was barely able to keep conversation. My friend said I seemed really high. The five minute car ride felt like it took an hour. Then we got to the field where we were going to meteor watch. We set up the chairs and I look up.
I live around woods so I can never see the full sky from my house. At this field however I had a horizon-to-horizon 360-degree window to the nothingness of space. It was like I was in a snow globe. No earthly landscape, just interstellar beauty. It was as if I wasn’t on Earth at all, rather just floating in, and observing, space.
I look up and, objectively, it’s the same as usual. Blackness, scattered with stars. But the way I was seeing it was completely new. It wasn’t just white dots against a black canvas. It was one giant living thing…a system, and I on the earth was just as much apart of it as those stars.
It was as if the universe showed me it’s true identity for the very first time.
I felt like all the stars and planets were just particles, flying through a wormhole at incredible speed. I felt the whole universe..I understood it and how it existed.
That’s the best I can do to describe the feeling I had.
I also had closed eye visuals. A bunch of psychedelic patterns swirling around eachother. Also I closed my eyes and I was in this private, small space. It reminded me of the bottle a genie would stay in. It was bright with hindu-like writing and symbols all over. It seemed like it was the place my consciousness truly resides in its raw form.
It was quite the experience. I smoke quite regularly and used more powerful psychedelics, but never have I entered a state of such profundity.