So, there is a reason I am up this late on HE when I have to be up for work at the crack of dawn. About six months ago I decided to go back to school to get my bachelors degree. I noticed I was having trouble with my concentration and energy level almost immediately, and I know what you might be thinking, “suck it up bro”. I was saying the same thing for about three months and I dealt with it the best I could while trying to juggle work (60-80hrs a week) and a newborn that rarely sleeps through the night. As you can imagine it wasn’t long before my grades, work and mood started to deteriorate.
Back when I was in middle school I was diagnosed with ADD and prescribed adderal, it helped me immensely, I did very well all through high school until I graduated. I decided that I was not going to go to college right away but pursue my passion which was music. I got off the adderal without any ill effects and pursued music for the next five years lol (I only intended it to be one). Long story short living my dream turned into a nightmare (non lucrative music carrier & drug addiction. After I had enough and got my act together I went back to school and got my associates and got a decent job (without the assistance of adderal).
Now I am back in school and have been taking Adderal for the past three months and the difference has been undeniable, my grades and work productivity have improved greatly. The only problem has been my sleep, on most nights I’m extremely lucky to get 5 hours. My wife has taken a lot of responsibility as far as caring for our daughter in the middle of the night but I still have a lot of trouble sleeping.
I went back to the doctor and now she has put me on sleeping meds, this shit is just getting crazy, I feel as if I am a drug addict again just with legal drugs. I need a drug to focus and stay awake and I need a drug to counteract that so that I can get decent sleep and not feel insane. Now the doctor wants to put me on anti anxiety and anti depression med. What the fuck? I am freaking out, I don’t want to be anymore medication, I don’t want to be on any medication period but I also don’t want my grades or work life to suffer.
I’m in a real pickle and I have no fucking clue what to do about it, it’s driving me crazy. I could really use some advise, I know there may not be a clear solution but I would really like to get some other peoples opinions on this. Thanks for taking the time to read this and I’m sorry it was so long.
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This is absurd. I don’t understand why would we ever distribute adderal in the first place if it is so detrimental.
@generaltitsvonchodehoffen, There is no denying adderal significantly improves your concentration and increases your energy. Why do you think somebody would be considered weak if they took it due to a lot of pressure from responsibilities?
@vinabeans, There are a lot of people that can relate to this sort of thing, the never ending cycle of prescription meds. Taking medication to counteract the side effects of the medication you are already on, so fourth and so on. It’s ridiculous.
My semester is almost done, then I will be finished with the shit all together. As far as the weed goes, no, I don’t want to be stoned around my daughter at all. I’m not a kid anymore and my actions have consequences that they did not used to. So, I won’t be smoking to treat the adverse symptoms of the Adderall. If I smoke (which I rarely do) it will be when I have my own relax time, separate from my family time.
Thank you for the advise my friend and I’m glad to hear you are off it.
@yoinkie, “Im not saying this to be some stoner advocating weed, im saying it as a person whose life was genuinely made better because of weed. I wouldnt be where I am now without it.”
I didn’t think that at all dude and I really appreciate the advise, I have gotten similar advise from other people including my brother and it is something I am very seriously considering. I’m sure my wife would prefer that I take 1 or 2 vapes and be able to sleep and eat normally than deal with the monster I’ve become lately. It’s absolutely fucking terrible.
I hate the sleeping pills, they have the same effect on me the next day even after I take the adderal in the morning, so most of the time I’d rather get 3 hours of sleep than take the pills and be in a complete haze the next day. I’m doing it tonight, it’s almost 2 in the morning here and I am not the least bit tired. I’ll be lucky if I get 2 hours of sleep tonight. Some bud sounds fantastic right about now. I might just have to pick some up tomorrow after work, look at the prices of some vapes and worry about the wrath of the wife later, or at least deal with it until the end of the semester. Any vapes in particular that you would suggest?