Any other writers who like to beat themselves up?
Let me start with some background: I’m a writer who has found a couple nuggets of success. (Couple of short stories published, a book contract that I impulsively backed out of, once got a 3 dollar check for something I wrote, and I wrote a column for a tiny newspaper for 50 dollars a week. Stephen King, watch yer back.)
Anyway, I’ve been writing for ten years and I’ve noticed a funny thing. As much as I love writing — this might sound pretentious but if I don’t write I feel like I don’t exist — I constantly kick the crap out of myself (mentally, of course) over the quality of my stuff.
I look back on pieces/stories that I wrote that got really good responses and I think, “Good christ I suck so effing horribly.”
I feel like a battered wife in a Lifetime movie. I love writing but it kicks my ass.
Any other writers who feel the same way?
I haven’t had anything published but I write songs and speeches and spoken word poetry for fun. I beat myself up all the time, over writings and drawings and paintings too. It’s because I compare my original stuff to really good more experienced artists and it just makes mine look like crap. Every now and then I will come up with something that I’m proud of but for the most part I beat myself up with disatisfaction.
@quig, I definitely have this happen to me sometimes. I am new to writing as far as publicly shared material. Although I have been working on a few blogs and love to just explore different styles of writing.
But I do go back sometimes and just think “wow what the hell was going through my head” haha
but im learning to just go with the flow and not worry about it.
I feel the same way!
But, I realized recently that when you look back on your old work and think “amg, what was I thinking, this is freaking terrible” it means you’ve gotten better. It means you’re always getting better.
It’s always nice to see others suffering as well. Heh.
Well if you looked at everything you wrote as a MASTERPIECE, you would probably not get very far. I think having that eye for perfection and never reaching it is necessary for good work, not just for writing but any type of art.
@quig, I think this is just part of being a writer, or an artist of any genre for that matter. It used to really annoy me that I could never be totally happy with my writing, but then I realised, if you’re always beating yourself up it means that you are striving for perfection and can only help your writing in the long run, provided you are dealing with your negatively constructively.
This happens to every artist.
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