Confession, falling out of love with HE

3 years, 1 month ago

I spent a GOOD amount of time here when I first discovered it a few months back. I LOVED it,a-like minds meeting to share and learn through collective consciousness? Awesome!

I first came here basically looking for a place to toss out a few things, clear clouds in my head. And I did clear my cloud, it’s been great. Learned a few things along the way from a few people I really should give credit to as well. But I took what I learned and applied it. I get so caught up in life these days, it’s hard to stay dedicated to this site.

So now when I come back to this site, it’s new group of people talking (for the most part) about the same stuff as we were a few months back. Now don’t get it wrong I’m not hating on that, I just noticed there’s some people here who are essentially like guides. They have all the questions and depth they learned and are ready to share. This is where I differ. I don’t have all that much interest in sharing my perceptions.

I sound like a Prick, but this site taught me how to better talk out and gather my deep thoughts. And give more insightful advice, something I was only able to do through handwritten, or typed messages. And I learned when to pick my moments to share what I learned with others, many people need to learn it on their own or they simply won’t value the lessons and realizations to be learned. And if they don’t value them, they won’t stick.

With all these words being said, I am going to deactivate my account and continue moving on. Much like the rest of my story, this site was just a very helpful phase in a critical life stage all in attempt to figure out who I am and what I’m doing, in hopes of being a good book!

So a thank you to all who know me, I’ll keep this site active till the next time I come around a computer. Hope to see and hear how some of you are doing

February 20, 2012 at 4:15 am

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Sometimes you got to move on.

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Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

true enough, in short I should have just said that. “Just stoping by, shit is cool, have to fucking leave though”

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Profile photo of pat pat (@epath) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

I’m new to HE, so I haven’t really seen everything there is to see, but I know what you mean. I was on another site that seemed to recycle ideas after awhile.

However, I would like to say that if you’re tired of the same ideas, Kirk, maybe you could suggest some new ideas to discuss. I would like to see more literary types of discussion, for example, but I don’t know if this is the site for it, so I haven’t tried. Maybe what you need is a different forum…

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Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

@pat (haha at pat) I figure that was going to be said. There was a guy on here a little bit ago who went on “Oh this site has gone to shit, no more good conversation blah blah” then someone said “Weeelll CONTRIBUTE”

that’s not my case, I’m not here to learn what people want to share. I came here to help me. And I did, Thankful for it. This site has a small form of magic to it. But I’m not really one for forums, this was my first one. After being shown it I had to join. I normally just check my emails on the computer, this site was my addiction. Just not addicted anymore.

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Profile photo of Kaysea Kaysea (@kedukc) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

even tho am more of a lurker, i tend to drop sites for 20days+ e.g i just got back to HE last night and there’s still a pinch of novel thoughts throughout the site.

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Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

I couldn’t walk away from the site 2 months ago, I don’t even see the same people around anymore really

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Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

besides that tits bastard

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Profile photo of Cody Cody (@versai) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

I think there is a plan to help weed through the population of new threads that may or may not be interesting to you in the upcoming version of HE. I partially understand the OP because when I first joined HE around 3k members, the majority of threads were novel ideas that inspired creative and collective conversation compared to the attention-thirsting therapeutic threads that make up the majority now.

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Profile photo of Brandon P'naantan Pinkney Brandon P’naantan Pinkney (@hlalhabattu) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

hate to beat a dead horse, kirk (I hate that saying, by the way…just terrible) but the whole contribution thing is true, no sense dwelling on how good the past was, though it was awesome, you can’t just discount and forsake the whole community because of a few bad seeds or duplicated flowers…..”biodiversity” is the key to successful evolution, and if you don’t feel like planting a seed or two, that’s one thing but sitting there and watching it change, then expressing discontent about everything when you aren’t helping it become what you yourself want it o be…..makes you just as bad as the rest of us. but all that said

I know you’ll take some good and some bad from your short time with HE, and it saddens me that you feel like you don’t want to be a part of it anymore, so all this said, hope you continue down the road of self development and discovery, man. but hey this could just be a rough patch, can’t bake cookies without heat. so I suggest leaving for a while and come back in a month or two, hell, you might like it again.

good luck, Kirk

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Profile photo of Bobby Bobby (@bobbylloydxd) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

Yeah man i mean this site will never have as much to offer as far as growth and happiness go as living life can give you. I went through a similar growing phase when I first found the site about a year ago. People definitely seem to reach a point where its no longer enjoyable to them anymore, and there is nothing bad about that. I come back every now and then because lots of times people share great new discoveries that enrich my life. Sometimes I am challenged to try something new or give up something for a while. Its all fun. You never finish growing or regrowing.
I’m suprised you feel the need to deactivate your account, but i don’t really care either. thats your business. I honestly believe that if ordinary people are given the opportunity to speak about what interests them then they will. the people on here aren’t much different from people on the streets, a lot of them anyway. People are great bro, love them. This website isn’t the holy land, your life is the ultimate awesomeness. So I understand your desire to leave the site behind.

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Profile photo of Martijn Schirp Martijn Schirp A (@martijn) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

I am sorry to hear you feel that way. I still remember your contributions, and I really liked them and found them original. I learned from you, and I keep learning from new HEthens.

I sometimes get a feeling HE is a drug for many, and once the high is worn off, they move on. Which is great, when you got the message, hang up the phone. But at the same time, if you just repeatedly change phones for new messages, you won’t get anywhere either. (not saying you fit in this latter category, time will tell)

I appreciate it that you took the time to write this post, and have a fantastic life!

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Profile photo of TheSkaFish TheSkaFish M (@theskafish) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

Best of luck Kirk!

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Profile photo of WryJester WryJester (@wryjester) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

I like the drug comparison martijn. It really is. There is only so much to say.

I just hope those gain from the site, take some time to give back to the new members. To pass the torch so to speak. There is a lot more to life than this site, and this site tells you that.

<3

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Profile photo of vishnu vishnu (@vizznou) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

i shall be aware of that ^^^

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Profile photo of Nick Nick (@nickc2007) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

Balls to that, Jordan’s still posting brilliant blog posts, and there’s tons of awesome threads with links to great videos and great ideas. Since there’s over 9000 HEthens now, there’s bound to end up being a bit of masked anonymous flaming, that happens on forums.

Keep up the good work fols :)

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Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

Too cool guys! great group of minds here I tell yah! Take care and I’ll be back to nosy to check up see how things are but I’m gone!

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Profile photo of Michael Michael (@mike) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

I remember your first post man, really enjoyed your story, as well as your other contributions. Was great to have you Kirk, take care yourself.

Myself, eh. I’ll always be around. Admittedly I like to lurk haha. :]

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Profile photo of Ellie Ellie M (@tangledupinplaid21) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

I can kinda relate. I still check here to scan the discussions I find interesting but I rarely feel the need to comment anymore.

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Profile photo of Martijn Schirp Martijn Schirp A (@martijn) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

I can totally see where you’re coming from Ellie, would you mind helping me out here?

It seems people come in contact with a wide range of ideas (alot of which they already thought on their own or outside HE), they go through a phase of recognition, which is great, but not completely fulfilling (just guessing here?)

Also, getting to HE is a bit like levelling up. Some level up 3 levels, some stay stagnant, some only get the last bit experience for 1 level. The only thing that is common, that at one point, there is not much more levelling up to be gained here. But I do see the potential, so I was wondering if you feel the same way, or could elaborate on what you are thinking and feeling? I really want to make good use of this potential so HE can level up aswell!

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Profile photo of Sasho Stoyanov Anonymous (@) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

HE is one of the best things that ever happened to me. Period.

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Profile photo of Psychonaut Psychonaut (@soulpilgrim) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

Me too. It helps me communicate with like minded souls. It’s full of Love & truth. It has helped me grow immensely. I have learned a lot & I want to give back.

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Profile photo of ELI var namnet ELI var namnet (@manimal) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

“When you get the message, hang up the phone.” – Alan Watts

If your purpose of coming to this site was to grow, of course you’ll have to leave it sooner or later. Just like everything in the quest for growth, as soon as you cling you stop advancing. Things like these can only kick start you to the next level, but once you’re past a certain point it will only hold you back.

Think of it it like climbing up a huge, uneven flight of stairs that’s slowly moving downward. HE is but one step in this flight of stairs. When you’re ready for the next step, just take it, don’t dawdle.

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Profile photo of Psychonaut Psychonaut (@soulpilgrim) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

This site offers so much it will grow too so we’ll grow together.

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Profile photo of ELI var namnet ELI var namnet (@manimal) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

@Psychonaut If people keep pumping more value into their posts it sure will.

Many of the most value offering people seem to have left this site though, which is a bit sad but that should only encourage others to fill the notch they left.

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Profile photo of Sasho Stoyanov Anonymous (@) 3 years, 1 month ago ago

@mANIMAl, I envy your discipline. And at the same time I intuitively refuse it.
I can be stupid and disciplined and obey, but on the other hand, I choose to be the only thing I can be – me.
When you get the message – make fun of it. No message should be taken seriously. Nothing is unpredictable. Hang up the phone ? What are you going to do after you hang up the phone ? Hang up some phones again ? Get the fuck outta here. Improvise.

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