Do you/would you ever regret drug use?
I’ve always thought the drugs I’ve experienced with was a BAD time in my life. A time that I lost control, lost hope, and lost the ability to have compassion for my own existence. Now that i’m older I’ve looked at the experience as a whole as beneficial. I’m not proud of it, though I don’t regret it one bit. My question is that, ‘can a person become so desensitized to, maybe life in general, that they see even some of the worst things and yet smile at them?’
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I have had bizarre, enlightening, violent, sensual and painful experiences because of my drug use and abuse. I have stories that many people would think are too strange, funny or terrifying to actually be true. I have learned more about life from my drug use than I have ever learned in school. I learned lessons that otherwise I never would have.
I don’t regret any of it and I never will. It made me who I am today. I have been homeless, I have been in jail, I have been suicidal. I have suffered all the consequences of the drug user lifestyle that my parents and my teachers warned me about for years. Today I am happy, comfortable, somewhat successful, I have a beautiful family and I love my life. I have no complaints, and I’ll tell you a secret….I still do drugs.
I smoke pot, I drink and I trip a few times a year. I grew up. I do drugs, the drugs don’t do me anymore. I don’t advocate cocaine, heroin or prescription pills but I advocate psychedelics with ever fiber of my being because they helped me turn the page on the destructive aspects of my life. Without a doubt I can say psychedelic drugs have made me a better person, but in the end it’s about growing up and figuring out how to have a balance.
1) You should never regret any decision you ever make. They are only things to learn and make you better from. The more difficult, the more you learn.
2) To regret drug use is just a side effect – the fear our society has placed on these “illicit” substances. We’ve grown our whole lives to know they are bad and we shouldn’t use them. Then we do it – and we have that childhood guilt of taking the cookie from the cookie jar. Of course, if you’re high as a kite, and you’re guilty – you’re REALLY fucking guilty. Get over it.
3) All drugs have a place, even methamphetamine, even PCP, even heroine. Their addiction is a counter weight to their use, but they all have something to show. I Would argue if methamphetamine was mainstream, and actually pure, and used at moderate to low doses, the entire work force would increase 5x.
I knew a guy who knew a guy (…) who would take meth. He was an engineer and a damn successful one. In his garage he had everything a metal worker would want. Whenever he’d take meth he’d go out into the garage, and do things in 6 hours men couldn’t do in months. He’d make this incredible works of art, fix motorcycles with ease, etc. Who knows if he remained functional, I don’t know. Probably not if it was anything above monthly use.
I have, 90% of the time, only had negative experiences with drugs. Extreme anxiety, extreme paranoia, extreme panic and depression. But without these drugs I never would have understood how to look at and overcome these negative emotions. I regretted my first time taking mushrooms the day after, and the weeks, and the months. But now I understand to a much greater degree what use that had.
4) All experiences are good, its up to you to build on them in that way.
If I didn’t witness first hand how shit that life is then I may be tempted right now. As crappy as people may judge my life to be right now, to me it’s sunshine, lollypops and rainbows every day, in comparison. That I was able to break out of that is nothing short of a fluke, or some devine force if you believe that junk. If hit with it in a slightly different fashion, such as time frame and circumstances, then who could predict the result. It may be a better or worse outcome but that is irrelevant now, it is done, time to move on.
@cadeus I empathize with your account. Psychadelics, in particular, have made me who I am today. I think you present a good differential, do you do drugs or do drugs do you? It’s a complicated path in life, yet part of the path nonetheless.
@brightwhitelight, in terms of physical health yes.
Serotonin sickness, substance induced anxiety/depression. No.
I’ve been around the block, I pulled myself out of the rave scene. The drugs are fun, the people are great and the music is amazing. The substance isn’t real though. The open love of the flower generation died with the love renaissance. For every person like you out there, who is in the scene for what they want it to be while having a good time, there are five people there to get fucked up, and have a good time while not caring about anybody else.
Also, raving is more of a lifestyle than a hobby. It starts off as a pastime, and then consumes you. Your sleep schedule changes, your judgment changes and who you once were ceases to exist. You become infused with the desire to be happy and make others happy. People take advantage of that, and will always take advantage of that and abuse it and lap it up until you’re an empty hull and a shell of who you once were. The party always has to end sometime. I’m glad you still enjoy it and find purpose in the rave scene.
I still go to shows occasionally, I still glove, I still love music and having a good time;
sparingly though. It’s like going to the bars or partying for me now. Once in a while, but not every chance I get, there’s too much more to life for me to spend the rest of mine in a half-full concert hall stepping to a local DJ, or in some barn out in the boonies to an underground artist.
Everybody says that their drug is the safest and most enjoyable (to the original poster, this is a perfect example of that.) My advice to anybody doing any drug, is to keep your head high, mind clear, and accumulated knowledge in mind. Nobody who truly cares for your well-being will tell you to do a drug, or flat-out not to do one. (I advise to stay away from opiates and amphetamines though, as a pre-med major, as those can and will ruin your mind, body, and life if you give them the opportunity to.)
@connerj93, It’s a time everyone experiences where they either change their perspective of life by altering it with drugs, or if they stay on the safe side. If you were the chicken that crossed the road, then you are looking on the other side and find it humorous of how you got from point a to point b without getting caught arrested whatever.
although I in a a way regret doing special k, and smoking the amount of pot I did previously. It made me pretty fucking weird,
@ijesuschrist, I disagree not all drugs are good. Look at nicotine, heroin, cocaine, and meth, we don’t need any of these drugs to survive. They actually hinder survival. They just aren’t good.
Regret from Marian Websters: to be very sorry for.
I’m sorry to my self that I let excessive abuse of drugs and alcohol blind me from seeking my destiny. I regret the burden I put on my family when I sought pleasure over wisdom.
Regret isn’t necessarily a bad thing unless you make it to be. Like it has been said these are learning experiences but it doesn’t mean I wouldn’t change things in my past. These things keep me motivated to do better in the present and future.
Any way here is a quote by Benjamin Franklin : ” Experience holds a dear school but a fool learns in no other.”
I regret none of the decisions I’ve ever made regarding drug-use..
I’ve drawn some of the coolest things while tripping on mushrooms.
MDMA helped me realize what it was like to be happy and pulled me out of a near-suicidal depressed stage of my life, plagued with what would be called clinical alcoholism.
Pot has helped me calm down and prioritize the little things.
The only difference between “drugs” and “medicine” is the person who gives them to you or prescribes them to you. If you take the good things out of your altered state of consciousness, and apply them to your everyday life, whilst sober. You realize that drugs and the altered state of consciousness they induce, are no different than the medications that your doctor will prescribe you, it’s just that they are abused horribly. Do I abuse drugs? I would lie if I said I didn’t. But it seems an overwhelming majority of my generation does so blatantly, right beside me.
I don’t regret any of the decisions I’ve ever made regarding drugs, because there is no longer anything I can do to change what I’ve done in the past. Only things I can change for the future, which is actually something I had learned whilst under the influence of a drug.
@cristinelizabeth, And that’s what I mean. There’s a point through the whole experience when you’ll never turn back again, your thoughts and beliefs are thrown into a void of unknown territory. I became weird as shit, but looking back to when I was younger I couldn’t have seen myself going any other direction.. I guess sometimes I look back and wonder what other roads I missed that would’ve led to the same end result. Regardless, all of those kids who saw myself and my friends as hoodlums and druggies and alienated us find themselves falling short intellectually, just a bit ironic.
I could never regret the spiritual and personal insight that i have received from these experiences. maybe they weren’t always the best, sometimes even they were even scary, but as a 21 year old I can happily say that some of the most awe inspiring and amazing experiences have come from drugs.. my awakening process began at a rave about a year and a half ago and i cant even try to remember what my life was like before. We live for the altered states of consciousness, the escape from the mundane. So i say use don’t abuse friends!
@ijesuschrist, No reason for you to be sorry they were my choices.
In my opinion stimulants and depressants in excess are a serious problem. One doesn’t need stimulants to find one’s self or to learn about self control.
I do agree that the root of drug problems in Western society stems from deeper psychological issues. But the availability of high dose stimulants and depressants is a horrible ill of our society and serves no meaningful end.
I do think that there are drugs that can help strengthen ones human essence. These are strictly natural hallucinogens, “Food of the gods” as Terrence McKenna put it.
Maybe in different realities you went down all of those different paths, but don’t waste this one pondering shoulda-woulda-couldas. Enjoy how your past affects your current person, and enjoy the rest of your life.
@brightwhitelight, the rave scene is dangerous. it teaches you how to love, but at the same time it teaches you how to hide or escape from the vicious reality that impending doom is inevitable. I’ve seen people completely lose themselves in it and come back something that they would never have wanted to be.
Be careful buddy.
Your question is kinda confusing isn’t it when everything in life plays out according to plan then you can look back and smile? Their are definitely times I’ve frowned upon myself but when i measure my success and when im really really happy all that other bullshit can’t bring me down :)
@sweetsheets, Im fine my dude, that’s why there are people like me at the scene, to help the first timers, to guide them through. In a way, its a right of passage, a cultural gathering if you will. I feel that is beneficial in very many ways, as for being dangerous, its light years safer then alcohol and nicotine.
Only really when my nose has bled profusely (not for a couple of years now) or when I have a case of achy jaw from MD.
But the positive experiences generally outweigh the relatively minor physical side-effects.
I’ve never seen a photo of myself with a proper gurn on but I think that would make me feel bad. It looks so bad on other people and I know when I feel it that I must be pulling some faces a bit but…whatever…it’s part of it.