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My fractured heel is seriously pissing me off. Tough to work, impossible to run and the rest of my training has to be done off my feet. Hands are swollen from the fn crutches but the sympathy factor makes it all slightly more bearable.
I feel better now than I ever have and I’ve been hanging out with less people these last few weeks than I can remember in recent times. I’m attacked to older girls but they all say it’s illegal for them to share the same feelings. As if I care about things like that. I found a rabbit on the road the other day and he’s still alive now but I’m powerless to do anything more for him. If he makes it he may not be able to go back into the wild and I will probably name him Crash. But I may not be able to take care of him like I want to. My great grandma is ninety years old and told me she wants to die and everyone else is powerless to do anything for her. I think I might like dubstep music.
i woke up today and decided to not be depressed. i decided to take care of myself and BE myself. i have decided to be happy. and i didn’t think i could decide what to be emotionally. but i have. and it is an amazing feeling to have control over my attitude. i’ve felt disconnected from everyone and everything lately, sleeping all day, hardly eating or going out. but i’m done wasting time! i just had an aging freak out! and there i was wasting time. no more! i have to learn to trust myself and rely on myself.
@Manimal, food poisoning can be a tremendous experience in a good way. I had a severe one a few years ago and I went in semi-conscious state for being so dehydradrated and it was like a revelation. Like my consciousness could go nowhere but in the here-and-now of the physical elimination process that was going on. I think I let go of my ego at some point, I was just alive and that was it… I was sick at the hospital for an entire night but the morning after I felt so peaceful and relieved both mentally and physically.
wow im feeling like lots of you. frustrated and also afraid of how the world is going and like alex i feel totally alone. i am totally alone here and i still have no water, and the snow is so slippery i cant drive anywhere. it has been more than a week now. but im doing yoga and painting a lot and walking the dogs.
the good news is ,the house is full of warmth from the fire and sunshine, i am in touch with my dreams, with nature, meditation, i can control what i want to eat based on what there is left in the cupboards. and i am brought to a state of extreme humbleness and simplicity now.
spring will come everyone. we must have patience.
It makes me sad to see so many of the people on this website are sad/ depressed. You would think the opposite, and that the idea on here would help people live happier and healthier lives. I think that a lot of you should go back over the life secrets and tips that drew you here in the first place.
My life is super awesome. While I do have many blessings, I don’t believe that they are excessive or that any of you would be very impressed by them. I have a family that is hilarious and loving. I am working a very strong way towards being the person that I wan’t to be in the world. I am extremely grateful that I am not prison or dead after all of the shit that I put myself through in the past 6 years. The girl I’m sleeping with right now is a total babe, she reminds me of nadia from american pie (: fucking awesome. I have quit drinking and smoking marijuana both in the last year, and I cannot believe how much happier I am and how much better I feel than when I did both consistently.
Things are going well for me in life, but I know that happiness comes from the inside and not the out. I am confident that whatever comes into my life I will be able to appreciate the positive in it.
I’ll be praying for those of you who are having trouble striving right now.
wondering why i have an extremely weird high right now.. i smoked a bowl under completely ordinary circumstances, but i feel so out of the ordinary.. hm.
and this yacht instrumental album i just downloaded is the fucking shit. hopefully will make this weird high get a little better.
I wish my blog had more visitors, and am a bit frustrated that I don’t know how to help. On the other hand I know that I can collaborate with other bloggers (including Jordan) to help me reach my goal.
I’m obsessed with nutrition right now and my mum is getting angry because of all that I’m reading (grains are bad, soy is bad, milk is bad, I’m already vegetarian, …). I can’t say she’s wrong but I wish she’d give me a chance before judging.
Also, I want to work on my productivity, because I’ve been lazy as shit lately.
I’m glad your life is going well bobby. :)
The reason why depressed people are on here is because they haven’t given up all hope yet for being happy and were hoping this would be the thing to fix them. That is my reason at least.
@stonedragon yeah its fine to have winter blues and feel all lonely and lost, but talking about it certainly isnt uplifting. Its sad to see people seem so sad. Which is why this thread is a downer.
HE is always talking about how you can choose to be happy (like Ren was saying.) And yet you guys seem so UNHAPPY. Its hard to believe its just a choice when you all know you can chose to be happy but you are all so sad.
But maybe its just a really hard choice. I was born happy and never changed so I don’t really know what anyone on here is going through. I hope you all find happiness soon though <3
@Sasho Stoyanov that was a pretty good song, the Oasis one. I hadn’t listened to them much before. Do you think it is about not casting a shadow, as in being in the present and not looking behind yourself on the shadow? Or that the person did nothing with his life and totally missed the boat, leaving no record that he ever lived at all?
I have been very frustrated with the state of the world for the past few years and have seen how corrupt, biased, and selfish each nation is. What frustrates me most is the fact that I am going to have to get some mediocre job to get by for now and cannot pursue my dream of gaining more and more knowledge in order to figure out how to make the world a better place. It sucks knowing that the majority of people do not question their societies’ ways of going about and tend to instead indulge in materialistic pursuit and pleasure. All I want to do is to have a voice but it is being suppressed by the fact that I do not have enough money to pursue my dreams and ambitions to explore and question everything that is happening. I do not want to turn into someone who has to subdue their true endeavors for the sole need of having to get by!
Also I have to say that I am angry at myself because I keep being upset every time my mom judges the way I lead my life. It is so hard and challenging to keep an emotional distance from my parents’ opinions and their conception of life. I am pretty bored to be still stuck there and I can’t wait to overcome this and access a new challenge.
I wish to be productive, to do more, learn more, get out there and express myself, just seems like I simply can’t get the right circumstances in which to do so. I practically feel like bursting into multiple “I”s and multitasking, lol. If only it were possible.
And, Animus, I understand where you’re coming from.
I understand that people are on here looking for advice and hoping to become happier people. I honestly believe thought that the main problem would be not putting theory into practice for most people. I can give you a three step plan to become a much happier and confident person easily.
1. Be careful what you put into your body. Pretty much any kind of drug that you take frequently will not lead to health or happiness, excluding hallucinogenics. Eat healthy, no more mickey ds and dunkin donuts. Vegetables, fruits, whole grains, and meats ideally.
2. Take care of your body. Do 3 sets of as many pull-ups, push-ups, and sit-ups as you can every day. get aerobic exercise like running, swimming, or bicycling. brush your teeth and get hair cuts you think are attractive. Get out in the sun as much as you can.
3. Actively express yourself. Tell people what you think about whats going on. Start conversations about the things you think are interesting. Draw, write, sing, any kind of art form.
I guarantee that if you do these three things you will feel happier within a month. Once you do something for 3 weeks it becomes a habit and it will no longer be a chore to do it. But will you give it a try is the question?
If any of you think you have a much more complicated reason for being depressed, here is a great book for treating depression naturally: http://www.amazon.com/Healing-Depression-Bipolar-Disorder-Without/dp/080271496X/ref=pd_vtp_b_6