I wish my blog had more visitors, and am a bit frustrated that I don’t know how to help. On the other hand I know that I can collaborate with other bloggers (including Jordan) to help me reach my goal.
I’m obsessed with nutrition right now and my mum is getting angry because of all that I’m reading (grains are bad, soy is bad, milk is bad, I’m already vegetarian, …). I can’t say she’s wrong but I wish she’d give me a chance before judging.
Also, I want to work on my productivity, because I’ve been lazy as shit lately.
I have been very frustrated with the state of the world for the past few years and have seen how corrupt, biased, and selfish each nation is. What frustrates me most is the fact that I am going to have to get some mediocre job to get by for now and cannot pursue my dream of gaining more and more knowledge in order to figure out how to make the world a better place. It sucks knowing that the majority of people do not question their societies’ ways of going about and tend to instead indulge in materialistic pursuit and pleasure. All I want to do is to have a voice but it is being suppressed by the fact that I do not have enough money to pursue my dreams and ambitions to explore and question everything that is happening. I do not want to turn into someone who has to subdue their true endeavors for the sole need of having to get by!
I feel so goddamn alone. There isn’t many things I hold too much meaning to in this universe. Things are things. I love people, emotions, music, and learning. It seems the more I continue life, the further I’m disconnecting from the things I love. The more I want people, the less they come around, the more I want to feel something, the opposite happens, I’ll play a song I love until it loses it’s effect and ecstasy-like feeling..and the more I learn, the less I know (although, I understand more)
Especially with the more I learn, which I care about the most, the less I can find people to talk to. Everything I’m passionate about, I can’t ever really get into with other people, because they 1) don’t understand or 2) don’t care at all.
I don’t fear death, spiders, ghosts..I don’t really fear anything other than never getting to experience ‘real love’ again..
This girl I really like I want to like her but I don’t want to quit loving the rest of the world, but then I can’t like her cause she always has a boyfriend, so i’m stuck between her and the rest of the world, and I feel so good when I see her, like a dream had come true. It bothers me to think I may be wasting my time.
It seems like a lot of like-minded souls are feeling a bit of despair with the way the world is going. All of the unconfirmed and yet oh-so-convincing conspiracies involving our food and water supply, financial and moral support for science and health advances, political state of affairs, etc. is just becoming so overwhelming.
It feels like there’s an urgent need for some kind of change, some kind of feeling of optimism to bring us back to the brilliant, powerful, intelligent species that is the Homo sapiens. Not saying that all of the other animal species aren’t brilliant, but we’ve been molded into experimental machines just like the monkeys that we manipulate in experiments.
I say we need a movement of brutal and pleasurable honesty, of loving one another, of going back to some kind of basic communicative medium beyond internet and cell phones and get back in touch with ourselves and others. We’re lacking proper expression, proper compassion, and all the connections we’re meant to have. We’re disconnected from nature, good food, true love, and meaning of all that makes us human. Our generations to come need to learn about self sustenance, not how to get on top of the job ladder or how to get the best and biggest house and shiniest new toy…
Bring back humankind! Don’t let docility into our blood!
wow im feeling like lots of you. frustrated and also afraid of how the world is going and like alex i feel totally alone. i am totally alone here and i still have no water, and the snow is so slippery i cant drive anywhere. it has been more than a week now. but im doing yoga and painting a lot and walking the dogs.
the good news is ,the house is full of warmth from the fire and sunshine, i am in touch with my dreams, with nature, meditation, i can control what i want to eat based on what there is left in the cupboards. and i am brought to a state of extreme humbleness and simplicity now.
spring will come everyone. we must have patience.
I wish to be productive, to do more, learn more, get out there and express myself, just seems like I simply can’t get the right circumstances in which to do so. I practically feel like bursting into multiple “I”s and multitasking, lol. If only it were possible.
And, Animus, I understand where you’re coming from.
I love the idea of this topic.
But okay, what’s on my mind? I feel that the immaturity of my friends and family is starting to wear me down. Arrogance and ignorance working in unison to create a giant, lesser-minded, metaphorical beast whose soul purpose in life is to make my life difficult. I swear HE is my escape from it all, where the wisdom never ceases to amazing and intrigue me. I suppose that is where I will have to stay though, laying down, reading posts on here and hoping that the world around me comes to an astounding realization of common sense and a grasp on the simplistic subject I like to call, “life.”
What does it say about the state of my mind that I don’t even know for sure how I feel about anything. I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing….
I feel really alone. I want so badly to connect with people, but there’s this haze in my mind, like a barrier made of fear, insecurity, and unanswerable questions.
Whats on my mind? I don’t know how to do my homework. I’m having coffee on Tuesday with this girl I’ve been in love with forever. I drew her this picture:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/76002270@N04/6838233897/. I think she liked it. I was surprised I had the courage to give it to her.
I am feeling that this topic is a MAJOR downer.
Before I read this though I was writing out valentines day cards for everyone at work to give out today since I only work on weekends. The cards come with blue buzz lightyear lollipops and I was thinking how hilarious it would be if everyone ate their lollipops at work and it turned everyone’s mouths bright blue :D
northface i love you drawing of the kat. i dont think this topic is a downer lizzie. it just tht everyone is telling about their winter blues. we all got a right to bitch a bit, i mean it is hard core winter!
and lots of people feel really lonely and lost.
2 months after graduating from uni, i’m still just lounging around at my parents’ house….. i know what i must do, but instead i just relax and enjoy doing nothing, which doesn’t feel as good as it sounds, considering i’m now supposed to be looking after myself, but here i am still living with my parents, spending my days watching netflix and playing ipad games :S, my life is at a turning point and i’m probably not doing it right, or maybe i’m just going through a phase which i’m not embracing the proper way, which also makes me think that i shouldn’t really worry about anything and just go with the flow of life, but i still do feel kinda bad for currently not having any responsabilites, i guess i’ve grown accustomed to having a daily routine that now that i don’t have one, my being is not moved into doing anything…. which sucks because i was one of the top students at uni (i studied 3d animation), and there, i think that’s it
i woke up today and decided to not be depressed. i decided to take care of myself and BE myself. i have decided to be happy. and i didn’t think i could decide what to be emotionally. but i have. and it is an amazing feeling to have control over my attitude. i’ve felt disconnected from everyone and everything lately, sleeping all day, hardly eating or going out. but i’m done wasting time! i just had an aging freak out! and there i was wasting time. no more! i have to learn to trust myself and rely on myself.
wondering why i have an extremely weird high right now.. i smoked a bowl under completely ordinary circumstances, but i feel so out of the ordinary.. hm.
and this yacht instrumental album i just downloaded is the fucking shit. hopefully will make this weird high get a little better.
@stonedragon yeah its fine to have winter blues and feel all lonely and lost, but talking about it certainly isnt uplifting. Its sad to see people seem so sad. Which is why this thread is a downer.
HE is always talking about how you can choose to be happy (like Ren was saying.) And yet you guys seem so UNHAPPY. Its hard to believe its just a choice when you all know you can chose to be happy but you are all so sad.
But maybe its just a really hard choice. I was born happy and never changed so I don’t really know what anyone on here is going through. I hope you all find happiness soon though <3