@Manimal, food poisoning can be a tremendous experience in a good way. I had a severe one a few years ago and I went in semi-conscious state for being so dehydradrated and it was like a revelation. Like my consciousness could go nowhere but in the here-and-now of the physical elimination process that was going on. I think I let go of my ego at some point, I was just alive and that was it… I was sick at the hospital for an entire night but the morning after I felt so peaceful and relieved both mentally and physically.
Also I have to say that I am angry at myself because I keep being upset every time my mom judges the way I lead my life. It is so hard and challenging to keep an emotional distance from my parents’ opinions and their conception of life. I am pretty bored to be still stuck there and I can’t wait to overcome this and access a new challenge.
feeling pretty good actually. I got into my first-choice college on Friday, starting in July. I feel like I wasted the last four years of my life in high school, slacking, never really taking anything seriously, didn’t “grow” at all. But I’m going to college soon, a fresh start, no troubles presently. Feeling good.
@Robyn, I know it can sound weird but once you part with the physical pain, it is oddly relaxing mentally. It is a feeling that is hard to describe and that I never experienced after. I even thought “What if this restaurant and the food poisoning induced with the food they serve was a sort of mystical gate to another dimension” … Nice start for a sci-fi movie :-)
For the last three years, you have been the only one special to me. I’ve tried everything to become something more than friends..
Two years ago, when we had a falling out, there wasn’t a day that went by that I didn’t think of you. I was so torn because of it. Then on november 7, 2010, you texted me saying sorry for everything and that you hoped that I was still your friend. I was bitter yes, but I accepted you back into my life.
The number 711 and 117 have always followed me, and I thought that maybe since the date that we started talking again was 11/7, maybe it was meant that way, and that there was something bigger than myself guiding me after all. Perhaps that was just a justification for me to give it another shot…
Today, you texted me once again and told me that maybe I should get over you. How do I get over someone that I have cared about for so long? I don’t think you get it, I can’t just get over you, and I’m afraid I never will. The 9 months that you didn’t talk to me, I spent eight of them trying my best to block you from my thoughts, to mentally destroy any care for you that I ever had since loving you without ever getting that love back is the worst kind of pain. Eight months of trying to block you from my mind, trying to erase you from my thoughts, was undone within a week.
I immediately began to care again, which I secretly knew was a terrible idea. (In all honesty, I cared the whole time, the feelings I had managed to bury.) Despite the fact that my superstition, (711), made me think that you were placed back in my life for a reason, I now see that the reason was not to be with you. I am sorry for making you cry tonight, I didn’t want you to be so hurt, nor did I expect you to be. I should be (and am) the one that is hurting, not you. You have had enough pain in your life. I just wish I could be the one to fix it.
I can’t help but feel that I did something wrong to make you not feel the way I do for you, but like you said, you can’t force feelings.
I hope to see you again, though whether I will or not, well, that is yet to be known. I love you.
I feel better now than I ever have and I’ve been hanging out with less people these last few weeks than I can remember in recent times. I’m attacked to older girls but they all say it’s illegal for them to share the same feelings. As if I care about things like that. I found a rabbit on the road the other day and he’s still alive now but I’m powerless to do anything more for him. If he makes it he may not be able to go back into the wild and I will probably name him Crash. But I may not be able to take care of him like I want to. My great grandma is ninety years old and told me she wants to die and everyone else is powerless to do anything for her. I think I might like dubstep music.
It makes me sad to see so many of the people on this website are sad/ depressed. You would think the opposite, and that the idea on here would help people live happier and healthier lives. I think that a lot of you should go back over the life secrets and tips that drew you here in the first place.
My life is super awesome. While I do have many blessings, I don’t believe that they are excessive or that any of you would be very impressed by them. I have a family that is hilarious and loving. I am working a very strong way towards being the person that I wan’t to be in the world. I am extremely grateful that I am not prison or dead after all of the shit that I put myself through in the past 6 years. The girl I’m sleeping with right now is a total babe, she reminds me of nadia from american pie (: fucking awesome. I have quit drinking and smoking marijuana both in the last year, and I cannot believe how much happier I am and how much better I feel than when I did both consistently.
Things are going well for me in life, but I know that happiness comes from the inside and not the out. I am confident that whatever comes into my life I will be able to appreciate the positive in it.
I’ll be praying for those of you who are having trouble striving right now.
I understand that people are on here looking for advice and hoping to become happier people. I honestly believe thought that the main problem would be not putting theory into practice for most people. I can give you a three step plan to become a much happier and confident person easily.
1. Be careful what you put into your body. Pretty much any kind of drug that you take frequently will not lead to health or happiness, excluding hallucinogenics. Eat healthy, no more mickey ds and dunkin donuts. Vegetables, fruits, whole grains, and meats ideally.
2. Take care of your body. Do 3 sets of as many pull-ups, push-ups, and sit-ups as you can every day. get aerobic exercise like running, swimming, or bicycling. brush your teeth and get hair cuts you think are attractive. Get out in the sun as much as you can.
3. Actively express yourself. Tell people what you think about whats going on. Start conversations about the things you think are interesting. Draw, write, sing, any kind of art form.
I guarantee that if you do these three things you will feel happier within a month. Once you do something for 3 weeks it becomes a habit and it will no longer be a chore to do it. But will you give it a try is the question?
If any of you think you have a much more complicated reason for being depressed, here is a great book for treating depression naturally: http://www.amazon.com/Healing-Depression-Bipolar-Disorder-Without/dp/080271496X/ref=pd_vtp_b_6
short disclaimer/edit/tag-on: I’ve actually been very happy recently, but was caught at a time where that was thrown off by nasal congestion. But, that’s what I was feeling at the time, and maybe my post would have been more positive two days before, maybe it wouldn’t have.
But it is interesting hearing the immediate thoughts of people at a given moment of their day, isn’t it? I wonder if we just casually think about depressing stuff more often, or if we just concentrate on the bad ones when we consiously organize our thoughts.
I have been doing twohundredpushups.com regimen for 5 weeks on top of the hundredpushups.com regimen, taking up 6/7 days. I have cut out pop, don’t eat fast food, have lost weight, etc. I brush my teeth and have gotten them a lot whiter. The only thing I lack is aerobic exercise, but once the weather gets a lot better, I’m planning on adding aerobics in tuesday and wednesday.
I play guitar and have learned several new songs. I am learning to sing and play guitar at the same time. I admit, it has helped, but today was just too much for me. I’ve been in a rut and have been trying to stand up, but today I just feel like laying here. I’ll eventually spring back, but when that will be or how much better I get is uncertain.
Or maybe you all should concentrate on something positive. Don’t hold anything in. This is the idea of the thread, people. What’s a downer ? Reading? There is something tragic in someone else’s misery ? There is, isn’t it? Selfish bastards :) IF there wasn’t so much compassion, there wouldn’t be so much sadness.