Don’t hold anything in

Holding things in can give you cancer!

Be vulnerable @Skye. You’ll see shit you’ve never seen before! Exaggeration and compassion beyond your rational beliefs! :D

I think I might have food poisoning, and it sucks.

This is for you @TheSkaFish http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRY_sdWU7RA

@Manimal, food poisoning can be a tremendous experience in a good way. I had a severe one a few years ago and I went in semi-conscious state for being so dehydradrated and it was like a revelation. Like my consciousness could go nowhere but in the here-and-now of the physical elimination process that was going on. I think I let go of my ego at some point, I was just alive and that was it… I was sick at the hospital for an entire night but the morning after I felt so peaceful and relieved both mentally and physically.

Also I have to say that I am angry at myself because I keep being upset every time my mom judges the way I lead my life. It is so hard and challenging to keep an emotional distance from my parents’ opinions and their conception of life. I am pretty bored to be still stuck there and I can’t wait to overcome this and access a new challenge.

feeling pretty good actually. I got into my first-choice college on Friday, starting in July. I feel like I wasted the last four years of my life in high school, slacking, never really taking anything seriously, didn’t “grow” at all. But I’m going to college soon, a fresh start, no troubles presently. Feeling good.

@Stark thumbs up!!

For the last three years, you have been the only one special to me. I’ve tried everything to become something more than friends..
Two years ago, when we had a falling out, there wasn’t a day that went by that I didn’t think of you. I was so torn because of it. Then on november 7, 2010, you texted me saying sorry for everything and that you hoped that I was still your friend. I was bitter yes, but I accepted you back into my life.
The number 711 and 117 have always followed me, and I thought that maybe since the date that we started talking again was 11/7, maybe it was meant that way, and that there was something bigger than myself guiding me after all. Perhaps that was just a justification for me to give it another shot…
Today, you texted me once again and told me that maybe I should get over you. How do I get over someone that I have cared about for so long? I don’t think you get it, I can’t just get over you, and I’m afraid I never will. The 9 months that you didn’t talk to me, I spent eight of them trying my best to block you from my thoughts, to mentally destroy any care for you that I ever had since loving you without ever getting that love back is the worst kind of pain. Eight months of trying to block you from my mind, trying to erase you from my thoughts, was undone within a week.
I immediately began to care again, which I secretly knew was a terrible idea. (In all honesty, I cared the whole time, the feelings I had managed to bury.) Despite the fact that my superstition, (711), made me think that you were placed back in my life for a reason, I now see that the reason was not to be with you. I am sorry for making you cry tonight, I didn’t want you to be so hurt, nor did I expect you to be. I should be (and am) the one that is hurting, not you. You have had enough pain in your life. I just wish I could be the one to fix it.
I can’t help but feel that I did something wrong to make you not feel the way I do for you, but like you said, you can’t force feelings.
I hope to see you again, though whether I will or not, well, that is yet to be known. I love you.

I feel better now than I ever have and I’ve been hanging out with less people these last few weeks than I can remember in recent times. I’m attacked to older girls but they all say it’s illegal for them to share the same feelings. As if I care about things like that. I found a rabbit on the road the other day and he’s still alive now but I’m powerless to do anything more for him. If he makes it he may not be able to go back into the wild and I will probably name him Crash. But I may not be able to take care of him like I want to. My great grandma is ninety years old and told me she wants to die and everyone else is powerless to do anything for her. I think I might like dubstep music.

I’m glad your life is going well bobby. :)
The reason why depressed people are on here is because they haven’t given up all hope yet for being happy and were hoping this would be the thing to fix them. That is my reason at least.

short disclaimer/edit/tag-on: I’ve actually been very happy recently, but was caught at a time where that was thrown off by nasal congestion. But, that’s what I was feeling at the time, and maybe my post would have been more positive two days before, maybe it wouldn’t have.
But it is interesting hearing the immediate thoughts of people at a given moment of their day, isn’t it? I wonder if we just casually think about depressing stuff more often, or if we just concentrate on the bad ones when we consiously organize our thoughts.

Or maybe you all should concentrate on something positive. Don’t hold anything in. This is the idea of the thread, people. What’s a downer ? Reading? There is something tragic in someone else’s misery ? There is, isn’t it? Selfish bastards :) IF there wasn’t so much compassion, there wouldn’t be so much sadness.