experienced what they call "psychosis"?
Does anyone here know what happens during a so called psychosis? I know from research point of view, what doctors tell about psychosis, but they don’t know why some people have it and others don’t, and why it is different for every human being, the experience. They tell me i had psychosis, but i don’t believe that because i was in full consciousness in what was happening and i dont use drugs and i dont have a history of weird functioning at all. And do you see it as a state of mind or a disease or disorder?
How does anyone who is “diagnosed as experienced psychosis” see himself/herself in context with that experience? Or do you know someone who is diagnosed as experiencing psychosis? Do you agree or not agree with what doctors tell you about it, because in my case they don’t understand much of it either? I really believe something else was happening but i can not yet explain why or what happened. I think they call everything unexplainable “psychosis”. When you look back at it, do you think you were “weird” at that time or something like that?
And how did you get into psychosis in the first place?
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Psychosis for me, was a very odd time. I felt very connected spiritually. But at the same time I was very confused and angry because my world seemed to be changing around me. I felt like there was a world that was pulled over my eyes. It’s a very bad place to be in, when you don’t really know what’s real, or when you become deluded. But I believe life is progressive, and I’m always learning from it.
I’d say I learned from psychosis. One very fond memory is watching a movie called Pi and got a message from it that everything is one. And that God is one. That we are all one. Which is something that has been believed by many people. So I feel like it’s true.
@heartbeat, My best guess is that everyone can experience psychosis and/or KS, but KS is a sign of spiritual progress while psychosis is a sign of psycho-emotional dysfunction.
Here’s what I experienced:
Hyper-awareness of present moment
Hyper-awareness of how everything is connected
Feeling that everyone was about to become aware of something good
Paranoia at work & places with bad vibes
Couldn’t take care of myself
Strong fondness of nature
@heartbeat, “The term psychosis is very broad and can mean anything from relatively normal aberrant experiences through to the complex and catatonic expressions of schizophrenia and bipolar type 1 disorder.” -Wikipedia, “Psychosis”
@heartbeat, With me it was irratic thought process, I had no filter to objectively weigh the importance of my thoughts and ideas. It is no good to be overly apathetic but I was the opposite, everything was urgent and it was frustrating me as to why others did not see the urgency, to the point of agression.
But I also have schitzophrnia, bipolar disorder and manic depression, as well as symptoms from a half dozen other disorders like mild autism and adhd, so people can find it easier to ignore anything I say :)
The thing about psychology and its claims is that they are largely based on theory, not fact, and in far too many cases subjectivity over objectivity. If someone just tells you that you have psychosis what in the world do you base that off of? What degree of illness warrants psychosis? Is it a big deal like someone who hears voices and speaks gibberish uncontrollably or can it be something small, like fluxuating levels of emotion for a short period of time? Are the examples I gave even representative of the words “big” and “small?”
There are far too many holes to warrant me taking a psychologist’s opinion too seriously in certain ways. Even if the person working with you were completely trustworthy and there wasn’t anything underhanded to worry about (prescribing medication for profit, recommending unnecessary hours of therapy for profit, etc.) you’d STILL have to worry about their subjective view not being correct or their ignorance about a subject.
I don’t know that I can say I’ve experienced psychosis simply because I don’t really know what that phrase means to me or to the world at large. My only advice to you is to seek help when/if the behaviors, thoughts, or feelings you have are beginning to interfere with either your or those you associate with’s lives in big ways. If you start hearing voices that tell you to kill people or something and it is so intrusive you can barely think straight, perhaps seek help. Otherwise, IDK…I’m so reluctant to trust people in the field I’d just tough it out until I resolved it myself or it got to the point where I considered outside help a necessity.
@hearthbeat The most easiest way to explain A psychoses and not to go to deep into it and remain at the surface is that for every person there are 2 worlds. The one that is within and the one that is outside.
A psychoses is literally the discovery of the innerworld that has been influenced for decades with information from the outside world and comes to a certain conflict. A moment that the inner processor cannot digest what is happening outside, or just found out that most of what people do is a lie(personal opion), or that processor has gathered so much filth it needs to clens itself. But then again what is true. Another example could be that you found the door to the rabbit hole and found a subject that interest you so much you need to think on this extensively and where society demands you to be on the surface you choose not to, there is a conflict of expected behaviour.
In a way you could argue that believe systems are created based on psychoses,- I can go into deep detail but in a way I trained myself to believe everything can be true. Interesting fact is that most critical thinkers in the world oppose the capitlistic and control system we live in but there to few to overtrow it. So when a person finds this to be true, which certainly can be of a certain point, and shares this, society is trained to prescribe medication. On the other part the people that found the rabbit hole and scream from there longs they have been tricked are said to be psychoses. The only true and rational thought is that a psychose is a conflict of mind that need to be resolved and thought of deeply by the inner soul you might say…. The most important part of a psschoses is that only true intentions can help the person if it takes to long. @lytning91 is true for most psycholigist prescribe medication and discuss from there world view point…. Learn to be smarter for the true magician outsmarts this….
In a way the only thing we need to learn ourselves is to unteach all that is told and strive after rational knowledge. Enyoi the inner magic and accept the psychose, play with and learn to use it in the benefit of your immediate surroundings..
@spiraltouch, That last paragraph was excellent. I have battled with this myself and have found it very interesting and useful for introspection. It can be somewhat debilitating in social settings. Although the lessons that can be learned are endless.
again like mentioned before it is all personal opinion. Diagnosis is based on symptoms that are going to be on the outside the same although the experience for the person will be different in every case.
Just continue to push forward and always be curious. Do not treat it as an ailment but try to work with it and not resent it. It is a strange trick but almost treat it as if it was an ally. something given to you for your benefit.
@boribori90 Yeah i recognize the symptoms, but how do i know if it was that because i lacked the total knowledge of the whole subject during the episode and also i don’t fully understand kundalini psychosis, and now i don’t know if it is something all people can have or if it is a “disorder” of some kind and if you can come into that state on purpose or if it is something to avoid…………but i do recognize what they say about kundalini……..
when I had my self-proclaimed psychosis I:
Was confusing dreams with real-life memories.
Was seeing people in ways that really disturbed me.
Could not fully empathize with people.
Felt alone, no matter how many people were near me.
Felt like something was “wrong” all the time.
Felt like my consciousness and body were two separate things.
Found it incredibly hard to see goodness in anything.
Thought I was either the smartest person on earth, or the stupidest, constantly one or the other.
Felt like I was reading minds.
Felt like people could read mine.
Psychosis is just a term when things start happening that are fucked up. That’s psychosis.