Finally.. from the heart
lol u tell me.
A message from my anus.
I am Happiness, That is IT! Im done! There is nothing more to discuss, ponder, doubt, wonder, check, think, second guess, appreciate, want, remember, plan, or try to change. I am Happiness doing its best to bloom in this somewhat, kinda sorta darkish place we call home at the moment. Lol this moment, right now, right here, as I type this…
I HAVE.. one goal.. one THING in mind. That is to grow and spread to every single soul on the planet. THAT IS MY DUTY.. “-_-… dead seriousface”.
Any ways.. back to the point. Guess wut im saying is that whether or not you want to admit that you even have such animalistic urges.. it is part of your being to have the capability to find a male desirable soley based on their looks and physical assets. whether or not you choose to suppress these thoughts and cravings.. they are there.. no matter how far down you BURYY these urges with romantic, gushy, princessy, class, lady like hooopplahh.. face it.. YOU WANT TO BANG lol
HOLY SIDE-TRACK. GODDAMM .. lol I apologize.. you females are distractin!.. A pleasant distraction no doubt.. but a distraction none the less.
Lol anyway before I started rambling about this shortage of TRUE motherfukin men in society these days. I was talking about ME… that’s right.. ME. Did you forget? I am HAPPINIESS. And I was rambling on about .. that dam strength I find in myself by simply.. being myself!… HAPPINESS.
So right about now.. or maybe when you were about one paragraph into reading this thing I wrote.. you probably thought at least of these things.. “doode this nigahs faded” or “lol wut a dumbass” or “WTF IS HE ON? I want some NOW”.
Lol I ain’t here to hide nothing! I will ADMIT that at the moment.. I am feeling pretty scandishliacious right now as a result of some shiznitz that I have consumed into my body. Lol. But all these words that I’ve typed didn’t just come from my fuckin asshole okay.. they are a series of random ass observations, thoughts, cries of help, MOMENTS of desperation, success, love, anger, insecurity, happiness, chaos, doubt, hope, belief, defeat, victory, ignorance, false realizations, and every other fuking possible type of ‘moment” us humans can experience. Allllllllll of these BEAUTIFUL yet TERRIFIYING bits of my life have always been all over the place.. creating chaos in my head.. CLUSTERFUCKNATION .. trust me.. lol (supposedly I am bi polar and have adhd.. lol fukin know it all doctors phycaritrists.. don’t get me wrong.. I respect what they do and are thankful for their services .. lol)
It FUCKING KILLS ME.. but once agin.. im not worried.. cuz I am happiness.. and use all that FUSTRATION, ANGER and DESPERATION coming out from this unreasonably unfair structure of Human existence.. to accomplish my goal. Ya I ain’t no dumbshit I understand the odds of me, one dude turning this world into one big bong rip… in my lifetime is pretty much impossible. But u know what.. I don’t give a fuck. Cuz I realize and am aware of what I am capable of and of what I am not. Basically… either.. the rest of my life I can bitch about my life, complain about how unfair things are, ignore the fact that this shit were living in is fucked up, say that my efforts dont count for nothing…. OR ……..
ACTUALLY go through with it, and take care of the things.. which deep down.. I KNOW need to be fixed.. whether the issue resides in my city, or my ownfuckedupself.
But hey.. there’s no need to cry u emotional hors lol.. Im fine now… and look!… : ) im smiling.
That rite there… right above me… it means that I AM HAPPY.
Sigh… smh lol NOO it does not have to do with anything with me looking good in my profile picture, or me trying seem sweet to sum random girl I met at the bar yesterday.
It simply means.. I’m happy bitch. Lol
well umm thanks for letting me vent.. haha whewww..
yall chicks were rite bout all that “you should share your feelings!.. It’s healthy for you!” lol.
“Sum idiot who just couldn’t figure out how to be happy”.. lol
ps. I know my spellin n grammer sucks.. guess wut.. I don’t give a fuck : )
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