Heart break: update

2 years, 2 months ago

A week ago i posted about how i’m not over a guy due to continuous infactuation. Well, i’m still not over him. Once again let me point out I am NOT in love. I’m not in love with the boy, i am in love with the memories. The late night walks on the golf course in my neighborhood. The dancing in the rain at a kids park at 3 o’clock in the morning. The way we could stay up all night in either mine, or his bed, JUST talking. The way he’d stare at me from across the room at awkward family gatherings at my grandmas house. The way he’d hold my hand and kiss me in front of EVERYONE because he wanted them to know i’m “his”. The way we could drive around and sing boy band songs (mostly mayday parade) and not be enbarrassed at all.
These are just a few of the things I miss more than anything.
If I made a list of EVERYTHING, you’d probably be reading for another 2 hours.
Basically, what i’m trying to say is, I’ve tried everything to get over this shit. Painting, making music, even doing the things i’m told, and not rebelling against authority. I just can’t seem to get him out of my mind, even though i don’t like him, honestly, he disgusts me.
But thats just life i guess.
Shit happens
Only time can heal.

December 5, 2012 at 1:30 pm

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Profile photo of Bryan Hellard Bryan Hellard M (@xyver) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@grandkintaro777, How did I blow her off? Me and her have been peacefully communicating.

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Profile photo of Ra Ra (@grandkintaro777) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@xyver,

I’m not directly talking about you, but rather the people you seemed to be defending.

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Profile photo of Bryan Hellard Bryan Hellard M (@xyver) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@gagsface, I’m marking your comment as spam. Please watch what you post in the future.

@grandkintaro777, Well you haven’t answered my question. What about their comments is bad? For the third time, it’s easy to call someone an asshole, but what part of their actions is assholeish? They were not blowing her off, they were asking a question.

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Profile photo of Ra Ra (@grandkintaro777) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@xyver,

To a person trying to vent herself about her relationship to a forum that allows it, their question was akin to asking “Why are you telling me this?”

Which is pretty asshole-ish.

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Profile photo of Sasho Stoyanov Anonymous (@) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@xyver, I already quoted the OP to show you why you’re an asshole. I guess you misunderstood. You’re still as much unhelpful as everyone, you know.

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Profile photo of yoinkie yoinkie C (@yoinkie) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@taylordacreator, @beyond, @grandkintaro777, explain how I am an asshole? Especially @taylordacreator, did you read my comment? Im pretty sure I gave you the best advice you can get; a cold hard slap of reality to the face. “if you have nothing positive to say dont comment”, so thats how you want the world to work for you? So basically you are telling us that you posted this topic for the sole purpose of strangers online telling you “there there, everything will be ok.” and giving you attention, because you didnt ask for advice, nor did you ask for help. You basically asked for pity.

Still though, take my advice. You are going through something that is very common, everyone experiences it. The fact that you are letting a human being dictate your happiness towards other things is absurd, and pointless. The man disgusts you but you cant enjoy anything other then him. Let that shit go and concern yourself with making yourself happy and improving your life.

And for those of you that called us assholes; get the fuck out into the real world. Enjoy yourself a cold slap of reality once in a while. You create yourself a fairytale box where you dont want to hear any constructive criticism. The sentence, “if you have nothing nice to say dont comment” Is the SINGLE worst sentence in the entire world. That sentence is translated into, “I cant handle hearing anything negative, im too weak to face reality, so please help me pad me ego and self esteem.” You people keep acting like this and the real world will destroy you.

Let me give you all some advice; keep a few asshole friends and associates close to you always. They will do more good to your life then anyone else. A normal friend will tell you you are doing good, the girl your with is perfect, and your job is great. An asshole friend however, will tell you how it really is. The best move Ive ever made was to stop being a childish boy and grow up and learn to take negative advice, think it over, and use it to better myself. This is probably the best advice I could give to all of your, but you probably wont listen to it because its too negative. Enjoy your bubble, I guess.

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Profile photo of Sasho Stoyanov Anonymous (@) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@yoinkie, It’s so heartbreaking that someone called you an asshole. :)

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Profile photo of Brianna Brianna (@briannabbycks) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

If you have nothing to say to help her, why say anything at all ? Its quite easy to not say anything, I don’t see any progress here except constant arguing and name calling.

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Profile photo of Brianna Brianna (@briannabbycks) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

“i’m not an asshole, you are”
“no, you are!”
hahaha. stop taking yourselves so seriously :)

i think you are still attached to him because he gave you memories which made you feel good, and right now there is no one doing that for you, so you long for the feelings he gave you, not him. i say, find someone better ;) and try not thinking about him…or posting about him. hahaha. have a nice day everyone <3

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Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

“If you have nothing to say to help her, why say anything at all ? Its quite easy to not say anything, I don’t see any progress here except constant arguing and name calling.”

Getting punched in the face is one of the most useful skills to learn in life. It’s a pity that there’s so few people willing to do it in real life, but atleast our online personas can learn to take a beating. She’ll thank us later.

@upset girl, I’d punch you in the face, darlin’

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Profile photo of Alexi Lewis Alexi Lewis (@hartmut133r) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

Find a new guy, make new memories, and do what makes you happy. This shit works for broken hearts.

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Profile photo of Nick Nick (@splashartist) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@taylordacreator, I kind of agree, the post seems a little redundant to me, but hey your obviously in pain over it. Just move forward, there’s plenty of opportunities to have experiences like that again. Just don’t romanticize with it too much.

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Profile photo of Indigo Indigo (@indiwouldgo) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@taylordacreator, good luck with everything. It’s tough road going through a break up, but good for you for realizing it is only the memories you are in love with. That’s the hardest part to let go! But there are definitely more memories ahead, don’t let the past effect the future.

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Profile photo of Bryan Hellard Bryan Hellard M (@xyver) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@beyond, I very much misunderstood. Even reading back to it, I still don’t get it.

Technically, no one here can be being helpful, because she never asked for any help. If anyone is being helpful, they stumbled onto it by chance, and happen to be saying what she wants to hear.

But I’ll shut up now. No one seems to be answering my question any ways, so no sense in pursuing it.

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Profile photo of Sasho Stoyanov Anonymous (@) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@xyver, Yeah, thank god she didn’t asked for any help, it was just a crying for help. Let’s move on.

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Profile photo of Taylor- Ann Battiste Taylor- Ann Battiste (@taylordacreator) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@xyver, @beyond, honestly, at this point, i think i just posted it in the wrong forum. I didn’t know there was a relationship forum. But hey, we learn from our mistakes. I wasn’t looking for attention, or pity, @yoinkie, I just didn;t word it right. IOf i had put “I need advice” or “what should i do?” then it would’ve been a reasonable post. Once again i’ll apologize for posting in the wrong forum, and/or offending you.

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Profile photo of Taylor- Ann Battiste Taylor- Ann Battiste (@taylordacreator) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@xyver, Can you delete the post now? This is fucking embaressing lol

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Profile photo of Bryan Hellard Bryan Hellard M (@xyver) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@taylordacreator, I’m trying to… It’s not seeming to work. Maybe it needs time to refresh?

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