Help! I think i'm having an existential crisis.

2 years, 2 months ago

Haven’t posted in a while.

This site has helped me tremendously in my personal growth, but I feel like everything has come crashing down again. I have no idea who I am anymore, or what I want, or even if I am capable to achieve what I want. I don’t know my reason for being in school anymore. My inner fire has gone out. I don’t know whats driving me anymore. I miss being happy. I miss not being tired all the time. I miss that internal “knowing” I used to have. I miss passion. I don’t know what to do.

I know many of you have gone through this. I don’t even really know what i’m asking, I just know something needs to change.

December 10, 2012 at 1:38 pm

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Profile photo of Phil Phil (@urbanuncia) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@lexi, Here to help! :)

My name’s Phil, I’m a 17 year old boy that lives on an Island in Florida, just so you have a better picture of who I am. I am right next to you on this one, because I’m at a crossroads in my life right now: About to get out of high school at the end of this year and in the summer I’ll be moving to New Zealand for a year, away from all my family and friends into a completely new environment. To most, it’s scary to be going off on your own “into the wilderness” with no help or fallback. But I like the challenge, and I want to experience living on my own and being in a completely new place!

Needless to say, there are always going to be people (including yourself) that will knock you down. And maybe you don’t see the way up, but eventually you’ll get out of the slump and realize what you need to do.

Profile photo of Ellie Ellie (@theeblackhole) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

My big thing is if nothing exciting in my life is happening I start to grow bored and question my life. Fill your life with adventure or do one super fun thing a day. It doesn’t even have to be big. Like a nature hike or if you don’t live near nature go to some shops where you live or visit a friend.


Profile photo of CaoimheS CaoimheS (@caoimhesweeney) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@lexi, Good. You’ve just been grounded again.
I’ve been through the same thing, twice! Once when I realised I didn’t actually know me when I thought, and the second when I was having a bit of a down moment in my life. The most important thing you have to remember is that it’s only temporary.
The holidays are coming up. Whenever you have a free moment, spend it with yourself. Read a good book, watch an inspirational movie, go through a few TED talks (these helped me), go for a walk, look at the stars, take up photography and mediate! Start appreciating the simple but extraordinary things in life again, realise you are nobody compared to the universe but you are somebody’s everything. You are who you are.
Have a good think about your life right now, is it how you want it to be? Are there people in your life you don’t want there? Was there something that triggered it?
Accept that you are having a down moment. Accept it as a stage in your life and start learning from it. And don’t forget to smile :)

Profile photo of rocketman rocketman (@rocketman) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@lexi, Everyone feels like you are now once in a while, it kind of sucks, but there’s good news, you can get out of it as soon as you decide to! :)

I’d suggest you to read this article, you probably have already, but why don’t you do it again, it’s amazing.

That being said, you just have to find once again the right motivation to go back on the right track, just take a day off, from everything, think about what you want from life, get in touch with the nature, go for some jogging, enjoy yourself and ask yourself what are your goals and if your attitude toward them is the right one, if it is not, just change!
No, it’s not that easy, of course, but you can make it easy if you just think about how great it would be if you accomplish that one thing. Come on, you can do it!

Best of luck :).

Profile photo of Lexi Lexi (@lexi) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

Thank you guys :)

My semester will be over in a few days and i’m gonna do some serious soul searching. And my birthday is tomorrow, so maybe something interesting will happen on 12/12/12 :p

Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@lexi, ITS MY BIRTHDAY TOO!!! We should meditate to each other’s birthday and pat each other on the back for being cool peoples

Profile photo of Tine Tine (@tine) 2 years, 2 months ago ago


what are your circumstances? girlfriend/boyfriend, breakup, not doing well in school, too involved partying, family problems? etc, etc

Profile photo of Twinsoul Twinsoul (@twinsoul) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@lexi, Happy birthday :) I hope you have a great one and that your problems sort themselves out!
Much love!

Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 2 years, 2 months ago ago

@urbanuncia, hit me up when you arrive here!

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