I don't have feelings
Ever since I was a kid I never felt any great attachment to anything. I remember when my grandpa died when I was 7 and I didn’t feel sad or guilty or any other emotions that people would experience. I knew how other people felt and tried to emulate it but I never truly experienced those by myself. during football I never got passionate about the game, I just went through the motions, when we won big games I didn’t truly feel happy, when we lost heartbreakers I just felt well nothing. I don’t get angry when someone makes fun of me or hurts me. I don’t feel happy when I’m around my current or past girlfriends. I don’t feel amazed by the amazing environment around me. I only see what everyone around me feels and say “well in that situation I should feel this so I pretended to feel that”.
The whole human experience is about feeling emotions and learning them and mastering them. Right now I’m feeling like I don’t belong here, like my life is pointless if I don’t feel anything. So far the only feeling I have truly felt is hope, hope that by delving into my subconcsious and using the law of attraction I can eventually feel real emotions. But if anyone has similar experiences or advice for me I would love to hear it! Thank you
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@alexmayle, I was alienated from my own family for a long time. After being alone on your own and keep isolating yourself, more or less you become that person. That’s why I am thinking the OP is just self-convincing himself there is something seriously wrong when he needs motivation and support, a push to get in touch with his most close people. Everyone is a coward to to a degree to open up and express what he’s really feeling.
@biga69 I’d advise you to see a therapist or someone close to you about this and if you think it’s serious, make it soon. I wouldn’t rely on a forum where someone talks to me about completely irrelevant shit.
Anybody that says having no emotions is a good thing, has never experienced having no emotions. Being completely numb is one of the most awful things you can experience. It’s like floating on a cloud through your day without anything phasing you, every day the same, no motivation for anything. Have you ever wanted to be sad about something and can’t ? Well trust me, it’s much worse than just being sad. It is no way to live life successfully. But I don’t think anyone on here can “diagnose” from what was said, so I would definitely recommend seeking the help of a professional.