I don't have feelings
Ever since I was a kid I never felt any great attachment to anything. I remember when my grandpa died when I was 7 and I didn’t feel sad or guilty or any other emotions that people would experience. I knew how other people felt and tried to emulate it but I never truly experienced those by myself. during football I never got passionate about the game, I just went through the motions, when we won big games I didn’t truly feel happy, when we lost heartbreakers I just felt well nothing. I don’t get angry when someone makes fun of me or hurts me. I don’t feel happy when I’m around my current or past girlfriends. I don’t feel amazed by the amazing environment around me. I only see what everyone around me feels and say “well in that situation I should feel this so I pretended to feel that”.
The whole human experience is about feeling emotions and learning them and mastering them. Right now I’m feeling like I don’t belong here, like my life is pointless if I don’t feel anything. So far the only feeling I have truly felt is hope, hope that by delving into my subconcsious and using the law of attraction I can eventually feel real emotions. But if anyone has similar experiences or advice for me I would love to hear it! Thank you
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If you were a psychopath you would hardly be worried about being detached…
The fact that you are feeling worried about not feeling something, is proof that you are capable of this. I can see you are worried, you’re feeling lost, down, lonely, confused, scared. Am I a little right? Don’t try to feel what you think is expected of you, just be. Don’t try to control your emotions, and they will come by themselves. You’re actually saying: “The whole human experience is about feeling emotions and learning them and mastering them.” So this is clearly your goal; to feel emotions and learn how to master them. Would you even have considered trying to control your emotions when you FEEL like you don’t have any? Dude. You’re actually saying you’re feeling guilty about not feeling guilty. o.O I think you have a lot of emotions, without knowing how to cope with them.
I think you should find out what happened inside of you when you experienced losing a grandparent. To me it seems like you felt the pressure to suddenly grow up. Kids don’t naturally linger on the past, they’re too busy enjoying in the moment.
Don’t be afraid to feel whatever it is you are feeling or not.
Anybody that says having no emotions is a good thing, has never experienced having no emotions. Being completely numb is one of the most awful things you can experience. It’s like floating on a cloud through your day without anything phasing you, every day the same, no motivation for anything. Have you ever wanted to be sad about something and can’t ? Well trust me, it’s much worse than just being sad. It is no way to live life successfully. But I don’t think anyone on here can “diagnose” from what was said, so I would definitely recommend seeking the help of a professional.
i really think it goes back to your childhood, try analyzing your childhood, perhaps the environment you grew up in required you to be emotion less as possible that you have created a shield around you, same goes for my childhood, i was around so much violence and negativity that i separated my self from everything and everyone, until recently life hit me and real emotions merged into my life as i got more in touch with the real self. still working, but the more you become conscious the easier it becomes to see/analyze the past and what is taking place now which causes you to become even closer and closer to the true self (snow ball effect). in your childhood you manage to form a protective shell in your mind, unconsiously, and its for your own good at the time, but as you grow up you realize its negative effects and it will slowly or suddenly fade away depending on your situation and with practice. i wish you luck on your journey man, just hold on tight no matter what and the results will be there sooner or later. if you have any questions or difficulty on the path dont hesitate to msg me, ill be more than happy to do what i can.
Sounds pretty zen buddha to me–see it as a positive thing! People spend years trying to control their emotions, just one less thing for you to deal with. You can think much more logically and clearly than most I assume. Maybe work on finding a hobby/occupation/passion where this could be an advantage!