I need some help and advice ..please

2 years, 3 months ago

Hey everyone I need some insight on a problem that has been ruining my life for the past few months. I started smoking heavily about a year ago. In the beginning It was great and I lit up it about three times a day. As the year progressed on and summer came I began to smoke even more, and for weeks at a time. Soon after, my highs began to change, almost as if a switch was flipped. Smoking brought me into a paranoid state. My heart would race and my thoughts would never seem to stop flowing. I felt as if everyone could tell what i was thinking because my thoughts were so loud. This lead to my first “episode” were I felt everyone was talking about me and was watching my every move. I brushed this off and thought it was probably just a bad high, but almost every time I smoked after that I had the same problem. Even when I was not high I felt as if the negative feelings were at work. I still continued to smoke regardless of what was happening, and now I’m paying for it. It completely changed my mind state and now I’m constantly anxious and paranoid. I quit smoking for about a month and a half now, but I’m still feeling the bad anxiety. I no longer have the desire to do anything or hang with anyone because I feel the anxiety and slight paranoia is making me socially awkward. I used to be fun to be around and had many friends but now I’m more or less alone. Has this happened to anyone else?

December 30, 2012 at 8:47 pm

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Profile photo of Ray Ray (@nowscreamlouder) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

Smoking has that effect sometimes. As far as stopping it, you have to realize that it is mental. When i first started smoking the same happened to me, and it made me hate it. After a couple more times with Mary i realized no one can hear my thoughts there is nothing to be paranoid about. If i was doing the same exactly thing sober i wouldn’t be freaking out. So what does being high change? Absolutely nothing! Being high is the only thing that changed. So i took a deep breath and relaxed and its been lovely ever since.

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Profile photo of Kristian Jaded Kristian Jaded (@mentalkink) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

/You started smoking what?

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Profile photo of Kimmy Svitak Kimmy Svitak (@secretcow) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

Personally I would say that you need to take time for yourself. Focus on what you really want or need from yourself to be happy. You could try changing your diet, or maybe exercising. Go do something completely crazy (something safe too). Just make yourself feel alive.
And smile, because you are awesome. Take in a deep breath, because you are alive right now, in this moment.

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Profile photo of Vinny Vinny (@aceto1) 2 years, 3 months ago ago
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Profile photo of Kristian Jaded Kristian Jaded (@mentalkink) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

@aceto1, Okay, if your speaking of mary jane, its lightly possible that it might have effected you. I am generally very pro marijuana, but simply put – its not for everyone.

Two cases I can speak of personally are from people close to me, one was a girl very sick with dis eases throughout her body (nerves,muscles, joints, spine and her brain) She was only 18 but was put on an insane amount of drugs and perscription pills and soon she became addicted to oxy’s. She went to rehab, than after was put on marijuana pills and marijuana foods. Her body rejected the thc and it made her headaches worse.

Another person I had known well, was a happy man, sociable and such i was close to him and his family. Began smoking much more regularly, than just a reefer ever so often, but he become very paranoid, began telling his friends and family stories of people watching him, and reading his mind. eventually he became anti-social. unfortunately his family brought him to a doctor and than specialists, they declared he was schizophrenia. It ran in his family and the drug changed chemicals in his body and brain, bringing it to the surface.

I don’t believe these things will happen to you, truly I believe that you just need to take a breather, realize you are alright and get your mind straight.

You can try and continue stop smoking, take up some social things again, exercise and focus on healing your mind, you are okay, just a little shaken up, but you can control this, you are in control of your body, just pay attention to it. :)

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Profile photo of Em Em (@emily) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

@aceto1, Exercise! Lots! You’re thinking too much & the chemicals in your head are out of wack. You need to get some more of the natural happiness/hormones pumping back around your system.

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Profile photo of SumtinProphetic SumtinProphetic (@sumtinprophetic) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

Life is a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you keep thinking this way, you’ll continue to see the same results. Change your mind, change your behavior.

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Profile photo of Kristian Jaded Kristian Jaded (@mentalkink) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

what @emily, said!

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Profile photo of bRAINfART bRAINfART (@whotheneighbors) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

yeah…what @emily said.

It’s true. A solid run and a little plyo will make you feel better. Just shoot to become a healthy person and set a goal for yourself.

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Profile photo of Vinny Vinny (@aceto1) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

Thank you for the encouragement everyone. It really means a lot. Wish me luck!

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Profile photo of LesterJohn LesterJohn (@lesterdeguzman) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

That’s happened to me 2 years ago. Back then I was a really bad soul. I would party a lot and do crazy experimental things. But the thing that I’d do a lot with friends was shoplift. The thing with that was I was too good at it that the thought of getting away with it and the adrenaline rush kept me going. When I smoked or partied I started to get paranoid. Even though my friends shoplifted too, I was the only one who started to feel guilty without realizing it yet I’d still do it, which I kno my bad actions caused my paranoia.

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Profile photo of Edward Bernays Edward Bernays (@edwardbernays) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

@aceto1, I know the feeling,same sort of thing happened to me. Weed has made me pretty self-conscious/self-aware and introverted (I used to be a loud extrovert). What I’d suggest is just keep putting yourself in these public situations, and whenever a friend asks you to go out or whatever, go. A friend once told me he doesn’t mind awkward situations for the fact he never feels awkward because awkwardness is just a state of mind,and he never let’s himself get into that mindset. My friend does some pretty stupid stuff in public too. But what I’m getting at is this awkward feeling is just that,and putting yourself into these types of situations more will help you be more comfortable in them.

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Profile photo of Kimmy Svitak Kimmy Svitak (@secretcow) 2 years, 3 months ago ago

@secretcow, Also if you have any questions or need help just ask. I’m sure any HEthen would be happy to help too.

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