I’ll introduce myself, Auto biograpghy of a stoner!

3 years, 4 months ago

Im abreed of over thinkers and kind hearts, I think many of us are!
My fathers a old school die hard armored core soldier and my moma bear is a 100% aboriginal, social worker.
Okay Im 20 years old born in Pembroke Ontario and moved when I was 1 year old to Oromocto New Brunswick for many years then moved back to Petawawa Ontario for grade 10,11. This is Where i learned a lot about myself! Desprite for friends I started smoking pot regularly and became a classic stoner! hanging out at the skatepark getting high riding my bmx having a care free time. Loved this time in life I rate it 9.5/10.

End of grade 11 I move back to Oromocto over the summer and got to see all my old friends, its grade 12 now. Im nervous to hang out with my friends for the first time since grade 9. A whole swarm of the ol lads came over when the moving truck was still putting our stuff in our PMQ (personal military quarters). My friends had always been close to my family and it was a good laughing joking environment (they even showed up dressed like I dressed hahaha a young metal head skater look). After a bit of chit chat me and the boys go hang out. Come to find they smoke pot too! These events have went on anywheres from 3-5 sessions everyday and bonded us even closer, un-countable amount of laughs and smiles.

08′ Getting older now I failed grade 12, I decided to try again. By this time one of my friends buddy who skateboarded joined the military and got his own PMQ. 5 other guys moved in with him. This became our party house and experimental house. Jammed the whiskey, acid, ciggerettes into me hard. I became best friends with all the boys in the house and a bunch of other guys who would come over to skateboard and bike and just get high and drink, chill out. My friends even had a metal band and had a cool setup in the basement where they played a few mini shows, this sparked my love of playing guitar and the acid, mushrooms, ecstasy just opened a hole in my mind open for creativity. I find this moment was the climax of my happiness thus far. I just Graduated in jan. 09′ was a new man feeling good. Working at a warehouse partying living rentfree and carefree. Then in the spring of 09′ one of my buddies had passed away. This is where I like to think my journey to spirituality begun.

I continued to jump from work to work still having fun but somethings missing. I slowly sunk into a weird place of being unhappy, and unsure of what I wanted out of life. By this time I kept only a few friends (maybe 10) of the what seemed to be 50+ I use to have. They went on and changed after highschool, it happens.

I got fired from a windshield repiar shop in the spring of 10′ I went unemployed for a months and was growing depressed. Me and my mom were out at a pow wow (native american tradition) and we ran into my old native studies teacher, Ron Tremblay. He was always a friend to our family and a great man and he invites me out to go fasting with him. At first I agreed to make my mom and grandfather proud, but I later come to find that taping into the spirit world of my indian culture was greatest seed ever planted in my soul!! A sober hallucination that still sits in my mind.

I met some really wise guys (characters you would NOT believe if i described them!) that cleared the dark cloud of negativity I had floating in my head. What relief to feel understood of all my confusion with life, and the best part not feeling alone.

After the experience of fasting I now partake in sweat lodge ceremonies and start feeling almost normal. So now by this time I got another job at a construction company in the fall of 10′(still in frederiction at this time). At this time my sister who had joined the military just recent, was 8 months pregnant and no sign of the father wanting to enter their life. She moved home with dad mom and me and it was a happy time in life and when my godchild was born I felt a new meaning of life. And craved adventure. So I told my sister when she gets posted to shearwater nova scotia, that I’ll sacrifice a bit of my time to step in and help a single mom out, try and be the father figure (as weird as that sounds hahaa). So I sold my motorcycle for extra cash and moved out west to bank alittle bit of money to edmonton alberta to work as a bicycle machanic with some of my old friends from petawawa. Job wise didn’t turn out well I got another one at a fishing shop, but what a great summer of riding bikes and getting high off good weed and having fun. 9.5/10

September 2011. Time to move to Shearwater and try out some new life choices! I get here and by this time I’m incredibly close and to my family and I love the feeling I get feeling like I’m giving a real gift of love to my godchild.

Although if been here for a few months now I made friends at the skatepark, My savings have run dry and I still can’t find work and its slowly taking its toll, I’ve decided to be a babysitter for my sister till the new year (to save her 1600 a month to get him watched,holy shit!). I am sick of working small jobs and am currently looking to enroll in school as a paramedic (sooner then later) and if I can, off to Newfoundland I go!

Although I dramatically cut back on my pot intake and haven’t touched any other drug in ages, theres still that happy stoner in me when I visit those 10 special friends in New Brunswick I’ll forever feel young!

Note:Almost an hour later and im done! If your reading this I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I did writing it.

November 22, 2011 at 10:45 pm

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Profile photo of kim kim (@ominka) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

constricting that bond between you and your roots must’ve been so fulfilling because its made you feel more intimate with yourself. and more solidified. you were like a tree realizing its connection with the earth! i’d imagine your footings grown to be more stiff. how great :)

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Profile photo of mitch mitch (@mitch) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

i certainly did enjoy reading that. glad to have you here, fellow new-brunswickian/ontarian :)

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Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

thanks! Just reading your guys’ words is cool enough! This site has got some cool cats on it

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Profile photo of Rajiv Nelvoy Rajiv Nelvoy (@rajivnelvoy) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

Welcome to HE Williams. You’ll love it here :). And keep going strong :)

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Profile photo of Martijn Schirp Martijn Schirp A (@martijn) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

Lovely read. Best of luck with your enrollment, wise decision imo. Take care!

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Profile photo of Michael Michael (@mike) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

This was a great read, thanks for sharing :] Really cool. Glad you made your way over to HE.

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Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

@Kirk, if it’s not a secret or something could you maybe detail the fast a little more in another post? I’ve done them on a regular basis since I took acid and read doors of perception and got into hallucinations but I’ve never done it with anybody else, how much crazier was it having a guide? I’m interested in hearing more about this…thanks, nice to meet you

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Profile photo of Renee Renee C (@themorning) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

That was a great read–thank you for sharing your life :)

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Profile photo of jake arends jake arends (@jakexx) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

I really enjoyed reading it Kirk. Thanks for writing it.

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Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

Now don’t get me wrong you guys, I still enojy a nice smoke when the vibes right. I just don’t do everything high like I use to!
@devon would you like me to just send you a message or post a note much like this one? I think i could do something for yah!

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Profile photo of Felicia Dedam Felicia Dedam (@jjfelicia) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

I could definitely relate on where you were coming from.
I believe we are all apart of a collective consciousness, and that we can learn from one another and teach one another. I really loved reading this, I read it over and over again. :)
You’re such a sweet guy Kirk and someone like you deserves the best. Life really is such a wonderful thing. WOO! Representing some strong blood. :D
i’m off too, 6th month.
I love high existence, and I love this post!

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Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

@Felicia I agree 197%! Problem being people don’t want to listen to anyone else then feel better then. Everyone could learn from the homeless man on the street but they just walk by. I don’t even think its the whole world that’s fucked, just the parts that count on money to survive. They use it as basically a score card, those who are rich are winning, while others just struggle to stay happy? Dumb to me, i hate the fact i was born into it.

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Profile photo of  Anonymous (@) 3 years, 4 months ago ago

@Felicia I agree 197%! Problem being people don’t want to listen to anyone else then feel better then. Everyone could learn from the homeless man on the street but they just walk by. I don’t even think its the whole world that’s fucked, just the parts that count on money to survive. They use it as basically a score card, those who are rich are winning, while others just struggle to stay happy? Dumb to me, i hate the fact i was born into it.

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