Love at First Sight

“Love at First Sight” is an expression obviously. I did not mean to imply that the “first sight” or visual caused one to realize they truly loved someone more than anyone else. Rather the first ‘encounter’.
An ‘encounter’ is the acknowledgment of both individuals of the other individual’s existence.

No wasn’t recent. Probably bout 4 or 3 years ago.

Recently moved to Florida from Missouri and had been living there for a year. Before a band practice I jumped off stage to go get the sheet music and stuff; I stood up to go through a doorway and there she was. I moved so fast the first thing I saw was her face. We stood there face to face about 2 foot apart for a good 4 to 3 seconds just staring at each others’ eyes. She had a face of bewilderment, I imagine I did as well. Then we brushed by each other and continued the practice. During that moment I felt a sensation of joy and satisfaction which persisted. And always did during further encounters as long as she was concentrating on me.

Sounds like standard infatuation but there are a few facts which counter that possibility. I’ve been in a few previous relationships and felt infatuated and excited while being close to them or thinking about being with them, but this doesn’t compare. Also after those previous relationships I realized that pretty much all dating is just a big game and decided to give it up. And only pursue those I had real intent to have a long term relationship with. This developed into a ‘neutral’ sexual state. If I saw a sexy woman I wouldn’t stare and drool or even glance. They were just another person, not a possibility of sex. I thought this would continue until after High School; even after moving to Florida where the ratio of beautiful women to “OK” women went from 1:3 to 2:3 I still had this attitude. But one meeting with this particular one and… I wanted to know everything about her. I wanted to meet her family. I wasn’t even thinking about how sexy she was. I was thinking, “WTF?!? How come I feel this way?” Most of all I wanted to find that out.

When you lust at first sight you are filled with anticipation, not satisfaction. Filled with curiosity, not joy.

Love is not liking. Love doesn’t require that you know a person.

Each person has to personally decided what they think Love is. Since our current society has confused its meaning. But of course there are older definitions.

I find that since Love is such a convoluted word it helps to answer a few questions.

What do you love? [Object]
How much do you love it? [Magnitude]
Why do you love it? [Reason]

In this case I have an old text file from 2009 which answers these questions.

“I love her soul.
I love her more than anything except God.
I love her because it is my purpose.”

Boy that opens a can of worms…

What is a soul? What did I mean when I said it?
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I think I meant her existence. Which would mean I simply meant, “I love her.” but was trying to find a greater meaning. As saying “I love her.” could simply mean her body, or her voice; or any singular aspect of a person. Which would mean that I wanted to say I loved her regardless of what or who she was. But what is that? That is nearly akin to saying I love nothing. I’m thinking what I loved was the role which I thought she fulfilled in my life. What role was that?
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I can’t find an answer. Any ideas? (What role did she play?)
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Why would I believe my love for another to be a God given purpose?
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At the time I was so confounded by what I was feeling that that was the only reason I could find. Still is. The thought of love at first sight was as alien to me as to you. We all have heard the phrase but have rarely thought about it much. How could someone want to marry someone after only seeing them one time? The idea is silly. Without any apparent reason for my love I started looking for inapparent reasons. That fit.

EDIT: MY REPLIES KEEP DOUBLE SPACING. Why is that?

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