[Official]: 30 Days of Facing Your Fears Challenge
I’m thinking… I could get a lot more items checked off my list if I give up Facebook and Netflix for the next two days. If I do that then I will be able to socially network, in person, Mon and Tuesday, by taking a trip north to visit my family. I miss them.
Day 1: Started a mammoth art project I’ve been visualizing. It took a huge chunk of the day and made a dense mess, but it is well worth it. However that’s the easy stuff off the ole’ avoidance list. God help me conquer the things I don’t enjoy…
Day eight: Tire fixed.
Day Five: Stayed in the house even though unwanted guests arrived. A lot of them. I don’t like to be around a lot of people,
Day Six: Controlled my anger about my dad’s favoritism of my middle sister to all of his other daughters. Don’t even want to go there.
Day Eight! I got my Christmas Tree!
Day 6: picking back up after a few days of slacking
Took a night off from the normal crazy shenanigans to stay in an meditate/get centered. I miss how I felt when I was meditating and doing yoga several times a week.
Day 8: Wrote a script for a 3 minute voice project I am planning on recording.
P.S. – Should be Day 9 today, but I took a day yesterday to visit my family. That was the only chance I had to see them this Christmas. Was well worth it!
Day 1: Created an ultimate music playlist
@jordan, what was your datura experience like???
I read about datura back in the day and have always been way too scared to go near it.
Days 5&6: continuing clearing out 15 years of stuff from my house. Most of it is obsolete, broken. Things I just don’t use anymore are going to salvation army. Some petite size 6 women is going to be happy.
I’m not usually stopped by fear. I feel it though. Mind spinning… breath shortened..heightened anxiety. My horse, Maxwell, had a swollen watering eye lid. Putting drops into your own eye is hard. The body’s instinct is to pull away. Imagine if the body is 1500 lbs and the being doesnt understand english. He let me take care of him. Why am I always surprised by that? My fear subsided as I investigated further by shining a flash light into his eye and lifted the eye lid. No scratches or damage. Swelling is down and almost gone this morning. Probably a spider bite or a dust speck. He needs his eyes to survive. I’m so relieved it wasn’t serious. I love my boy Maxwell and apparently he loves me too.
Day 9: Finished Christmas shopping. Very last minute, but it’s finally done!
Immediately after reading this, I decided to text my girlfriend, exposing my vulnerability in the midst of a HORRIBLE power struggle we have got going on right now.
Something which I am a little scared of right about now.
But thanks Jordan, this is a great great great post of yours. They’re always very good.
Day 2: Had prolonged conversation with in-laws
Day 4: Created my first website, quite proud of it :) (lifemasterytips.com)
Day 7&8: still sorting out household stuff into 4 groups: his, mine, salvation army, and trash. Pictures are the hardest to sort through. I hope this house sells. I don’t want to be here any longer.
@beandip888, That sounds rough. Hope you are okay.
Day 10: Went snowboarding in the mountains for the first time.
Day 11: Learned to carve on a snowboard.
I’m new to snowboarding. This trip to the mountains was only my 3rd time on a board and I have to say, at first, I was dreading it. I never used to like snowboarding, almost hated it in fact. The two times that I had went out last year were frustrating and difficult. Nothing but falling down and coming out sore, without any sense of accomplishment whatsoever. It honestly felt like it just wasn’t for me.
Stepping out of my comfort zone this year and going out to the mountains to try, at least one more time before giving up entirely, turned my viewpoint on the sport, and even some aspects of my life, right around. I can’t explain how incredible it felt to be up there. The fresh air, the way you would see the sun rising over the mountain top as you ride up a chairlift, the peace and quiet, it was beautiful.
The first day was definitely a bit frustrating, I will admit, but I just kept pushing, kept falling and kept getting right back up. By the time day two had hit I was already learning how to successfully carve on a board, something I’m told takes a lot of time and practice! But there I was, and I’ve never felt better.
Starting this challenge, I have to admit, the first nine days felt good, but never great. A lot of my first tasks were centered around breaking procrastination and getting things done that were piling up, but it wasn’t until I took on a challenge that forced me to step out of my comfort zone and go snowboarding on a mountain, even though I was dreading the experience initially, changed me. I see the value of this 30 day challenge in a whole new light. The happiness and fulfillment I was looking for was up there on that mountain, outside of my comfort zone, learning and experiencing something I probably never would have before.
If there’s one thing you can do during this challenge, I highly recommend doing something that doesn’t come natural, that does not feel comfortable in any way. Just go out it and do it, and you will understand what I am saying. It’s going to be hard and you’re not going to want to do it at first. If you have to, do what I did and find yourself someone, anyone who you can ask to keep you from turning back, to give you that push when you start to feel uncomfortable. Just do it. Live and learn from the experience to come.
After what I experienced up there, I can honestly say I will never forget how good that felt, flying down a run on my own for the first time, in control. I’m without a doubt, a snowboarder now. I will never give that up. I’m from western Canada, and I understand now why so many people here are in love with this sport. It’s so much more than that.
The greatest part about all of this is that the lessons I have learned from this experience are going to carry over into other aspects of my life where I feel like it’s time to step out of the comfort zone. That is perhaps the greatest reward of all. I’ve grown, and I owe it not only to those in my life who have supported and inspired me, but also this challenge as well. Thank you.
@phanci3 thank you for the kind words. I’m ok. Just going through something. I should have planned more social breaks instead of spending so many days alone with sad memories. I’m going to visit my niece and her kids today.
Day 1(which just ended): – watch my old schools summer musical “children of eden” which for a highschool they did really well. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GxVUwRf82TY
Day 9&10. Still sortting and packing. Some rooms are now completely empty as I am giving, tossing, or packing things I don’t use.
The next generation should have it easier… Books, pictures, and documents can be digitized. They might still need dishes and clothes… Or not… who knows what changes the future will bring.
Day 11: I took a break from my mega list of things that need to be done to read Hermann Hesse’s Demian. Very wonderful book… I highly recommend it.
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