Perception from the Individual.

Hello,

This is my first post and one i will find easy to answer from my POV :)

I used to be grounded with fear of mind control, conspiracy theories etc, i was under so much stress too, and memories of the past which weren’t so fun.

I then got mild psychosis. At the time i was smoking a lot of green, and i think it knocked me in a good direction. It forced me to face everything that’s happened to me, and i don’t know how many would say so, but i found the psychosis a fun experience. I was on holiday in another realm so to speak.

Anyway, since then (almost 2 years ago now) i have learnt a lot about life and i am always learning more. Through my ‘illness’ I have learnt to go with the absolute flow, let things happen as they may, not to push or force anything (which i always used to do) i still do sometimes but i realize when im doing it and also that when i don’t force things, or want things, amazing things will happen. Im done with worrying about the state of the world, because i just have a feeling that it simply cannot continue the way it is. The following generations i believe will eventually turn it around. we can only plant the seed, make them aware.

I believe everything as waves, and if you think about it (though not too much) everything can be seen as a wave. As a whole the wave is reaching its peak (or maybe already has) and is going to/crashing down.

If people ask for my opinion or help, i have never ending patience and i will give them my opinion, but i never force it upon anyone. i feel like im a neutral person, i rarely get emotional, or impatient (unless i want something which im learning to drop!) but when i do its usually emotions of happiness. When i do get emotional i realize how trivial the reason is.

I have always had an interest in what may happen after death, and have aired my views to my close ones about it. They have been so supportive, and i have realized that unless we can positively know (for certain) what happens after death, then why worry about it, and instead patiently wait for it. to me i see it as the ultimate surprise. no matter what experiences people may have with certain drugs / nde’s, you cannot positively know what happens, until it happens. It is a moment that cant be leaked, that cant slip off some ones tongue, and until then, i continue to enjoy my life and make peace with everything.

I enjoy looking at everything, how intricate it all is. I enjoy seeing visualizations as i fall asleep. I look forward to the next cool thing that pops up.

So in general, i trust the process, have no problem with eating food i enjoy, and yes, i enjoy it, even if it may have bad press etc. I believe we need to stop having our views on life dictated by everyone else, and find out for ourselves, that eliminated worry and fear, and is a fun experience :)

@filipek,
I am really interested in the idea of being, however I think I have attributed a greatly lesser significance to the experience than others, as some seen to have seen it as the end all of philosophy and purpose. This is why I am interested in what you think, as you talk about meditation, which indicates you practice “being” and therefore should have a lucid view on the first hand experience.
I think it is more of a stepping stone in the human psycho-social evolution, whereby we utilise our self-awareness to regulate the overwhelming body of information we experience providing a platform to adapt to our existential problems. Then I believe this change has a variety of profound symptoms which are to extensive to cover without waffling, but are largely beneficial to individual and social well-being in a hedonistic and utilitarian sense.

- Is your understanding of “being” synonymous with Eckhart Tolls meditations/lectures describing the “now”?

- Once you have actualised the state of continuous “being” where did you go from there? did you feel it was the essentials ends of you personal development, rather than a means for further growth?

- Without using any teachings/principles that are expounded in an accepted philosophical system, explain the questions the experience answered for YOU!

:)

Oh no it is not that, I don’t necessarily think others are uninformed, they just see the experience in a different way to me.

It is just the simple difference in me seeing the experience as a fruit of practice whereas some others appear to have seen it as the only or most valuable fruit to be attained.

The experience Itself was valuable for me, however I think it will form a platform for growth, a means rather than an ends.

I can see how it looked like I was implying what you said, however that was not how I intended to sound. Hope I cleared up what I meant :)

Put simply, I don’t. I can’t understand this, nobody really can. Sure, we can explain the act of evolution, we can come up with theories of why we’re here and how this all started and what happens after all this is finished but…we don’t really know, do we? Maybe this gives me comfort. Maybe I look around at the world and I realise that this could be my one shot. So having said that, maybe for once, ignorance truly is bliss. I mean, mostly, it isn’t. Don’t get me wrong, knowledge is something I strive for, but perhaps if I was aware of what is really going on then I wouldn’t be so happy to be here, or I wouldn’t be so comfortable. Maybe if we all knew for certain that this was it, we’d be too scared to take any risks. Maybe if we all knew for certain that this was just a test, we wouldn’t push on with our dreams and goals because we know we have as long as we very well please…

I don’t know where I’m going with this post anymore. Personally I believe that this is it. I have fleeting moments of believing that human emotion is too strong for us to not have a soul, but then I think again and time and time again I come to a conclusion that we are not special, and we are not going anywhere once this finishes… Which is sad yet exciting, because I know that I have about sixty years tops to finish whatever I have to finish, and maybe, just maybe come to terms with all of this craziness.

@jamescarson, Sorry for the short answer, but have limited internet access now:

- Not only Eckhart Tolle his idea of Being, but as he explain it in The Power of Now and A New Earth, yes that is what I mean.

Being as in being conscious, aware of the things you do, not taken away by the riots of fragmentary and discordant thoughts. Being as thought by Vipassana and other meditation techniques.

I have not reached anything, I have not actualised anything. I am being as much as possible, whenever I ‘remember’ whenever I am aware, then I am. Cannot put it any differently right now in a shorter way than this. Hope it helps!

Good luck !