I have been sitting at a half attention on my desktop computer for hours wondering what it is my heart is seeking. Like a light tower or the eye of Sauron I feel my mind drifting attempting to expose some form of sentiment. I feel emotional gravity in my soul yet I have no means of expunging it. After hours of my mental confinement, I have decided that it is pain relief that I am looking for. I can feel my tear duct swell with lack of use and I am prepared to use them once more. I haven’t cried in a good while. Can anyone recommend anything that will help me cry or something?
Think about love. Think about how the people you hold dearest make you feel, hold that emotion and think about how wonderful your life and the world is. Forget about all the bad things for a moment as though they done exist and focus on how damn amazing all the people in your life are. The shear amount of emotion you can conjure when u get practiced at doing this can bring pure tears of emotion to your eyes. I try doing this on a regular basis, it helps get me out of my lows :)
@brutusa, Man, the mind can’t be happy unless the heart is.
Crying means you have the strength to be vulnerable. Break out of your routine. Do because you genuinely want to do something, not just b/c some things just need to be done. You are 100% in control of yourself in this very moment.
Personally, the solitude thing, I get that. Building walls only locks you inside them, and that is not fucking bueno.
Are people playing any part in this issue of yours? Or is this a “self” thing?
@splashartist, Thanks, I couldn’t find anything but i’ll keep searching.
@iluvetingcrayons, I feel where you’re coming from. I have had countless moments where I have teared up but even then, I never seem to cry.
@danfontaine, I’ll check it out, It might set me up for a good one, haha.
@bronzefish, Thank you, I will take up this practice immediately, I genuinely mean that.
@boribori90, Sorry if I came off in an offensive way, I do have control over myself, It’s not out of negativity. I just can’t force a cry and so I’m searching for a media that will help me do so. The solitude thing is something that I have struggled with, not so much physically but more mentally.
Thanks for the advice, and acknowledgement everyone :)