Ramblings of my very first Mushroom Experience (sorry if it's disjunct)

7/14/12 – Mushrooms

Who with: J.
Where: Mt. Elden, Arizona
Time: about 2:30-8:30 PM

The consuming feeling of utter bliss – needing to laugh and weep hysterically all at the same time – the only solution is to yell, make primal sounds, be a child. Life is magnified into the experience of a child—a baby. No filter, no thoughts, just knowings and feelings. Words can come, but they hardly communicate what is happening. All words do is limit and conceptualize pure experience and truth. Truth cannot be captured by any language, cannot be communicated to those who have not experienced it.

The truth is
We are nothing, and we are everything.
All at the same time.
One consciousness is the only thing connecting all the Nothing/Something/Everything in the world.
We are not of our bodies.
We are one being.
This is the loneliest realization. I am the universe and the universe is me.
There is nothing.
There is nothing to be discovered.
“We don’t know FUCKING ANYTHING because there is nothing to know.”
“You can’t send someone into the field to report back on something when it doesn’t exist, sorry. Silly!”
“Nothing to report here, everyone get back to what you’re doing, go about your business!”
“We don’t know anything, but there’s nothing to know, so you don’t have to worry about it.”
The universe doesn’t even know, because there is nothing to know.
No one knows more than you do because there is nothing to know.
There is no more reason to feel anything but carefree.
Nothing is everything. Everything is simply nothing.
Nothing matters, everything matters.
Might as well enjoy it.

“You’re like, ‘There’s gotta be someone that knows everything,’ but really nobody knows fucking anything! But everything knows everything.”

“Everything’s alright, everybody just chillout! Go about your daily lives!”

“Where are we going?” “Why are you asking? People always wanna know, ‘where are we going?’ Why do you wanna know? Why can’t we just be good with where we are?”

“Just wave and act nice.”
“I’m a human being, you’re a human being, let’s be cordial. There’s too much in this day and age telling us not to be cordial. It’s just too much. Let’s just be cordial. Can we just be friends?”

“Nothing is concreeeete. And everything is concrete. Everything is a paradox. And not.”
Too hot and too cold at the same time. “C’mon body! I can’t fix it if you don’t tell me what is wrong.” Jacket on, jacket off. Zipped up, zipped down. Pant legs up, pant legs down.

Less “evolved” animals are actually at a higher step in evolution because they allow themselves to just be. They aren’t burdened by thoughts, or trying to conceptualize things. They flow, there is no filter. Very young children are the same way. Words are unnecessary in a truthful and simple life of just being and feeling.