Tell us about yourself.
Where do you come from?
Rich strict family, broke liberal family? suburban, rural, city?
Hard rocker type? Hipster? Hippy? Thugster?(thats what i call ‘em) Or just yourself?
Ive been hopping around lower to mid class hoods rocking hoodies and pistols for awhile, eventually made it to london, made mad money hustling and partying. Learned so much about myself, both through culture change, and psychedelics.
Living in florida, my mom tried to be strict and shelter me from everything around us, but it probably just led to me becoming the very thing she tried to prevent. a weed smoking, drug dealing, beatboxing, street hustler.
Now im back in the hood, going to college, and working 2 jobs, trying to shed light on a very dark place through art.
Ive got some other big plans for molding the world into what I think it should be like. Or atleast in my immediate surroundings.
Looking back on my past, I wouldnt trade it for the world. Homelessness, almost a year in jail, fights, and rolling with any “type” imaginable, all learning experiences.
When Im around all of these wealthy sheltered type, I sometimes have trouble syncing vibrations.
Thats why I like preforming magic so much. It gives me an excuse to vibrate with anyone, from any culture, and any background, randomly with almost no introduction about myself. (even in china, where i hardly knew the language)
My experiences have collectivly resulted in my mindset and expanded view of the world.
Whats your story? Sum it up for us.
I gave a very brief versian of my story. I could go on and on with war stories of a teenage adventurer like myself. But im sure you could too! Lookout for my autobiography some day though, itl be a good read.
Enough about me.
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I grew up in a middle class christian family who were real strict about a lot of things until I reached 13.( I remember they wouldn’t let me play certain video games because “evil’ content or whatever.) I never understood the point in some of the church teachings,but I have always been an open minded person and I noticed some of the adults seemed very closed minded. The one thing I noticed was a certain happiness that a lot of the people had that went to church, like the atmosphere was full of happiness?( hard to put a word on it, positivity doen’t feel right.)
I was a pretty average kid until middle school, when I started to feel different. All the other guys started talking about girls and I had not interest. I got picked on a lot because I sometimes was a bit goofy (which I now recognize as flamboyance.)It didn’t strike me until high school that I might be gay, but the combination of bad denial and my christian upbringing taught me it was choice. I was depressed a lot throughout times in my high school years, because I am a pretty “masculine gay,” (even though I do not like to use labels) and my denial allowed me to “fit in” and compete in sports like footballl. I started smoking weed and drinking when I was 17. I really wanted to be a pilot but due to my poor vision and lack of financial aid I went to community college to figure out what I wanted to do. In college I started off great, but then I started getting depressed again, well because I couldn’t figure out why I couldn’t get a girlfriend. Yes, my denial was real bad. I would mentally tell myself that I was shy, I didn’t act like other gay guys or any other thing I could come up with. Finally one day I was hanging out a girls house that I thought I “liked,” we got high and watched That 70s Show. There is an episode where a guy kisses Eric and I got, well, turned on. That moment destroyed all denial because it just clicked in my head that I was gay; I just knew. Till this day I attribute the weed to helping me break past my denial. Unfortunately, I didn’t want to deal with coming out of the closet, until 6 months later when I started suffering from dissocation other psychological issues. From here I came out of the closet to all of my family and friends but because I was in denial for so long. I even hung with a girl for a few months to experience with bi-sexuality, but after suffering some horrible anxiety( for some reason having feelings for a girl when you are gay gives bad anxiety) I decided to listen to my instinct and realize I was only gay. my path to acceptance has been a bitch, but along the way, a lot of great people have helped me at HE including Manimal and Ellie!!