this WHY questions

2 years, 7 months ago

hi brohs, i’m fikri ,new here
i’ve some point that need to share and ask to you all.
lately i’m in some ‘sad inside cozy’ or maybe ‘cozy inside sad’ conditions. or maybe it’s just same afterall,
this happen since my usual unwanted habit,think.
just like another,this think things works for me to (most of all)produce action or process school lesson, such as schedule of day, science or anything that existence that fullfil this world nowadays.but it works until some months ago that full of life problems,

then, i try to think that this mind is so pity to work only for what my body got to do . i think sometimes he(mind) need to think for himself
start from here, i always think about human, social, emotions(i even proud that i could manipulate my perception of this one,haha), logics, a non-physic of “me” that part of universe,cosmos,dimensions bla bla bla all the days.

then some day i go out to get lost and try to find a calm place, such a green and peaceful plateau.finally i got there,(fyi it’s name is dieng,a plateau that located in central java, indonesia).
from up there, those thought comes again, but not in some goal. it’s like i always attacked by “WHY’ question,
universe, human, dimensions, emotions-ALL OF THIS EXISTENCE!
why, why and why. one ‘why’ maybe generate one answer, but the answer itself explode my mind to another thousand “why”question. i try to get out from this condition, but then it comes one question ‘why had to stop?’ and ‘why i’ve to continue’ then it didn’t stop. i try to manipulate my mind to ask it by “when”, “where”, “how”,”who”. but again, the answer is so simple that just gave me another “why”.
why You create all of this, so what? why i have to ask why…….
this condition stays for some days, and it makes me feel like surrender but in a good way, or maybe sad and happy that blurred(damn bad english an explain this condition made me look stupid)..
it feels like, i really need any reason for all of this, i stop want to chase the answers but it just come, the feel need of reasons is just come again and again.

now i still slightly can manipulate my days to keep still happy, but i can’t go with this condition afterall. i predict it could make me crazy even kill me :/

after saw people experience and perspective in this community,found some same things happen to me and some similar perspective.
i believe you guys could help me

July 2, 2012 at 12:52 pm

You must sign in or join to reply!

Profile photo of Peaceflower Peaceflower (@cosmicplur) 2 years, 7 months ago ago

I think this is normal, it is very healthy to always aquestion. Yes it can get in a loop like that, when I am feeling lost in the whys I find that is a perfect time to meditate. Quiet your mind, but I feel meditating with music in this case is very beneficial. Something without words, or something with soft, beautiful words. Zero 7 has quite a few great songs like this. “passing by”, “in time”, “spinning” is one of my absolute favorites. Give this a shot, and contemplate, letting go. Yes the whys are interesting and beneficial, but ultimately they dont matter. What matters is peace of mind. Harmony.

Reply to this topic

More Posts Like This


Does Ego death/Spiritual enlightenment make death easier?

Hi there, I’ve been reading spirituality and conciousness expanding books and novels for a few years now, but it seems the more I read the more death becomes and more and more prevelent realisation in my life and...


Spring of faith

Your trust in me, to full degree is equal to and limited by your urge to let yourself be free So riddle me this, how free am I? when watching you with sketchy eyes, dark and weary, lost, afraid full of this unhealthy...


Consumption of psychedelic drugs.

I always wanted to try drugs. So I did some research online about different kinds of drugs. What fascinated me was ‘MAGIC MUSHROOMS’. I read everything about it where i can find it, what effects it can have...


Additive Free Enlightenment

Seriously…I love this site, and the community…But I wish there were more people here who believe that things like LSD, MDMA, Ayahuasca, THC, ect ect (endless list I swear) are not the only paths, (or for that...





Culturally Different Health Approaches

I was reading an article that casually stated: “The juice of dandelion root is used in Europe to treat diabetes, and diseases of the liver and gall bladder.” This got me to thinking, if different countries...


which one's the best time to smoke weed? day or night, and why?

it would seem that the times we choose to smoke our pot greatly impacts how we feel about ourselves, so why does it feel like night time is the best time to fill the pipe than the day? is it because it’s in more in...


[Official] Site-Wide February Meditation Challenge!

Welcome to the first of many monthly HE 30 day challenges! We ran a poll to choose the challenge, and the winner was meditation, with dream journaling as a close second. The rules are simple: 1) Meditate at least once...


How can I get along with people

its been my problem for ever.I can’t get along with i got into big argument with my classmate in front of whole class.I was humiliated.I can’t have good conversations with anybody.I feel like...


Not knowing where life's path may lead…

I know and understand that deep down i have all the answers i need. But recently ive struggled with making a huge desicion; to leave my love to follow my heart. Ive searched for others with similar issues and logically i...


The Bible is awesome, my bliss

I literally am so existed how my life has changed. The book has been my guide for a year now. I feel like I’m in a state of complete bliss all the time. The joy, love and good feeling are always with me. I have...


What do you Fear?

As I was reading posts and responding to them I decided I wanted to get some input from you all on a topic that I toil over quite often. Everywhere I look I see things like “conquer your fears”, “fear...


What do you know about nothing?

The love that can be described is not the real love The love that has a name is not the auhentic love How can we be relevant on the internet in this ocean of information? Who is right, who is wrong, what to read, what to...


Festivals 2015

Any individuals who are attending any festivals of all kinds are welcome to chat and group up here! Tips, stories, ideas, possible meet ups? Anything related to festivals. Feel Good, Summer Camp, Hangout, Bonnaroo,...


Auric Vision

Hello All You Wonderful People, I am looking for someone who can see auras or an other form of astral vision in normal, waking state reality. I’m not interested in someone who needs the aid of an external substance...