To leave or not to leave college…
Recently, I have been feeling disconnected from the world (mainly our society). The idea of truly loving yourself and others, of living for the present (not for the future/past), of expanding your understanding of the human condition and human existence is completely overlooked and mocked in our modern society. I am currently finishing my third semester at college, but I can not see myself returning for the spring. College, and the education system in general, is completely at odds with my newfound understanding of the world.
So now, I\’m stuck and I\’m looking for advice. I really cannot see myself returning to school (at least not semester), but I\’m not sure what I should do. I do not want to end up living with my parents and working a crappy job, nor do I have a ton of funds to get my own place and start a new life. Ideas I have come up with so far: hiking the Appalachian Trail (or something similar), trying to find a super cheap backpacking trip, or a last minute \”study abroad\” trip. Does anyone have ANY suggestions?
@peacendblessins, I am also finishing my third semester of college, and while I definitely have an understanding of the world that very few of my peers do, I don’t have any interest in leaving. I hate that I’m in this institutionalized system where I repeatedly go to school and will eventually have to get a job and pay off debts for the rest of my life. However, I’m taking the opportunity to learn as much as I can (I’m double-majoring plus attending all possible meetings and lectures for other topics) while I have this chance. My hope is that I get through this education system and end up working a job that I can enjoy, because I’m majoring in things I think I would enjoy. I’ve also made a promise to myself to not get stuck in the average American pattern after college and be a slave to society; I’m going to live how I want to live, but be in harmony with society to reap the best of both worlds. The other things typing me down to college is my friends, my fantastic friends.
So no matter how disconnected you feel from the world due to any sort of enlightenment, if you can find a way to learn about things you’re passionate about and surround yourself with people you can bond with, I don’t think you’ll have any desire to leave college. Trust me, there’s times where I will disappear from it all to go off on my own and think about the world and I don’t feel like I fit into this mold society is trying to make, but when I come back to my classes and my friends, it makes me glad that I’m sticking with it right now.
But honestly, if you can’t stand it, go on an adventure! As long as you don’t end up living with your parents working a crappy job. Maybe just do something crazy over your winter break and if you decide you want to do that instead of be in school, then withdraw before the semester starts and live your life, but make sure you know what you’re doing. I am all for living in the present, but sometimes if there is an attainable future full of pleasure that will take a little suffering in the present to get there, it’s worth it. Just find an attainable goal that college will take you to! Set benchmarks.
That was kind of rambling, but I hope you get something out of it. From one college sophomore to another!
Vintabeans got it right.
Listen up, kiddo. You’ve got one shot at this life you’re living right now, and I think you know exactly what you have to do. You just need a little encouragement.
I was in the same situation as you some months ago!
I think your heart already knows what you want to do but your mind is afraid of knowing it.
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