Basically – I’m 24. I’ve been smoking since 14, regularly since 16 (every day). When I was 21 it hit me that I was only sober 1 day a year (and those days were because I couldn’t find any).
I love weed. It helps me live. When I don’t smoke, I just feel bleh. Unmotivated. Uninspired. Unhappy. I have a hard time staying productive sober, probably because of the nagging ‘this would be better high’ mentality that sticks with me.
I’m really at a stand still. As long as I’m high, I’m happy (good bud, no reggie). Actually, reg depresses me. Why do I have to pick out stems and seeds to get a lesser bud just because I can’t run to the store and pick up an 8th of medical grade? I digress.
I’m an intelligent person. Were it not for weed, I’d probably be a real prick. It let me see what it’s like to not always have the answer, to have to study, to be ‘normal’.
Years of smoking (10 years, after all) and my mind hasn’t slipped. If only it were legal in my state, I’d be one happy camper.
So here I sit, sober, bored, wondering.. Should I: a) Quit smoking it (I don’t miss it as much when I’ve been without for a few weeks), b) Keep paying ridiculous prices for something that grows naturally, or c) Move to a state where it’s legal.
Or whatever else. I’m just trying to kill my day since I can’t seem to get anything done.
Get rid of that shit and do something with your life.
The only reason you feel bored is because you don’t do anything with your life, that’s the ONLY CAUSE OF BOREDOM that has ever existed. Weed only helps you cover up the problem, like a shitty bandaid on a massive stabwound.
Oh, and all those symptoms of low motivation and whatsoever are well-known consequences of weed. Not to mention that you’re obviously addicted, which should be a major wake up call.
Come on, man. There’s more to life than sitting on your ass doing nothing, life is worth more than hiding away in drug-induced fantasy land LIES. It should be obvious to you by now that the weed is only keeping you down, man. You pretty much say so yourself in the OP yknow. Come on, dude, you’re better than this.
You know if you keep wasting your life on weed, one day you’ll be old, looking back at your life and regretting it all, you will become so depressed and there’s no getting that life back yknow. Don’t let that happen, there’s nothing that can take the edge off that feeling of having wasted your life. It’s not too late, you could change your life, when you get old you could look back at a life of glory and feel happy and proud and stuff.
Drop the weed man. Peace //Elion
@manimal, hey i came accross this thread and only joined this site to say that ur post is brilliant and inspiring. ive been off it for 3 weeks, craved some tonight and u’ve quashed that, thanks.
I’m almost 30 and been a daily smoker for almost all my 20’s. years ago i always imagined i would quit someday and everything would be fine, now my hair has thinned a bit, ive got a few wrinkles and my (youthful) youth is gone. and i was definatly a non functioning stoner…..what a fucking waste!!
any1 sitting around smokin joints all day should stop asap. moving away somewhere and getting a fresh start might help….65 and retired sounds like a much better time to be a stoner.
Smoking weed is all about enjoying life, enjoying life is not all about smoking weed.
I know the feel bro, not me, but a friend of mine is kind of addicted. He is saying the same as you. I cannot judge well enough by only this article but I know my friend very well.
I would say to you, get a hobby, find something you like to do without weed. If you can put your mind on something else, the weed will be less important. It might seem strange but for me it works. I enjoy life with and without weed even though I could smoke weed all day erry day.
I work for 5 days a week and have a deal with my girlfriend that I only smoke in the weekends. It was hard to get used to it but after a few weeks it helps. Smoking is much more ‘special’ now (like the first times you smoked) and the high is so much better. The inspiration and happiness are much more of a higher level.
I really think its awesome that you ask questions about these kind of things and I would encourage you to keep on doing that.
Yeah I know how you feel. I never smoked everyday like you have but I smoked a decent amount and concluded that I don’t need it. I feel shitty without it like there is something missing from my life. So I stopped cause every high eventually comes to a end and when I do it regularly I start getting depended on it. I wish I had unlimited supply or else I wouldn’t have this problen
You seem to be addicted to weed, atleast psychologically. Cut it out for a while and when you feel comfortable living without it, you may start reintroducing it into your life.
Everything in moderation.
Ye, I had a similar thing with weed. It is good stuff. But relations need a sobering aspect, so the THC relation needs a washing sometimes, a broom or whatever metaphor one uses to keep the aims true and dependence at a minimum. The last is a good check-up and navigator.
Don’t get caught up in your mind telling you that you need weed to have fun.
Pot is awesome, don’t get me wrong. I smoked it probably ten times every day last year in college. But now that I am home for summer I have smoked it about twice in the past three months and honestly I didn’t notice any difference. In fact sometimes I stop during the day and ask myself “am I high right now?” and the answer is always no. I am just tripping balls on life.
You can experience the most intense emotional, mental and spiritual highs anytime you want and you don’t need any drug to do it. But if you convince yourself that you need weed to have a great time, then you will need it. Its all a mind game.
Pot is a lot better in moderation. You get way higher, have more fun and appreciate it more. Try not smoking for at least three days and see how it feels.