Which Sacrifice to Sacrifice?

2 years, 1 month ago

The choice between life styles and their individual benefits,and their resulting happiness.

Hello everyone,

This is my first post, I am excited to see the feedback from you all as I think that this is an interesting topic, one of which many of us face. I urge people to pick apart this topic in anyways they wish and let me know what they think. Before you start reading, please take note that, i am a Gemini. Now i do not follow the Zodiac that much, But i do believe that certain characteristics exist within these signs. Gemini’ are dualistic beings that tend to have trouble with the sometimes combating sides. I am saying this cause after reading you may question why does he split the two lifestyles up ? why can’t he just practice both? the reason… is really unknown to me…

Where to begin..
Ok, Thus far in my life I have learned a great deal about the mind, body and their connections. I adore this knowledge that has been shared with me and I enjoy giving it to others. Most of what I learned was from the time in my life were I lived with 10-15 other people in a communal environment. It was an amazing experience with some of the most beautiful people I have ever met. They helped me open up parts of myself that I didn’t know existed before. and again, during my Cross-Canada trip in a Purple School bus with some of these friends, I experienced that life . The “free-folk” as I like to call that lifestyle. During those times, even during the rough parts (yes, they happen!) I was the most complete I have felt since child-hood. I enjoyed the freedom to not have to worry about work, or school. Or the pressures of social systems not bearing down on me. I am sure many of you readers can relate to this feeling. I am also sure many of you can relate to it’s opposite;

I speak about these feelings in the past tense cause I am home now, back in the old habits and routines. Now don’t get me wrong, I love my home. Its a beautiful ancient old house whom I share with my brother and Grandfather. Both I love dearly.

OK wait, i am getting carried away. This is tough.

what i am trying to get at with the Free-folk and that life is that there is one problem I face with that life-style; and that is being a weight on other people. There are some people who tend to take advantage (intentionally or not) of people who can support them (food, shelter, etc). Of this I am uncomfortable with. I will accept aid when it is needed, but to intentionally set out with the hope that someone will carry you is distasteful.
And this is where the choice comes. for me.

My brother, and a few friends. Are hard working and saving money to team up and buy land. All who share the vision on communal farming and living. The dream of all dreams.I fantasize about that life almost every minute of the day. But, in today’s world it cannot simply just happen. It must be worked for, hard long work just to be able to obtain the land. And this is what I am facing.

I do not have much in the ways of income, No special training or schooling, the only work i have been doing in the last 6 years has been Cooking. I am really good at it, kitchen work comes naturally to me. But I do not wish to slave away in one for the remainder of my days.

So thus the Choice; Does One give up many of the freedoms that come with living the Free-Folk way in order to someday be able to give the Freedoms of living on an communal land? Or does One live the free-life and be carried until someone else makes a communal home where I will be welcomed.

The reason this is such a big deal, and i use the word Sacrifice. is because i literally mean to sacrifice certain lifestyles in order to get to that place. What i mean is that I have been considering joining the Military. Like i said above, I have no trade or schooling. I have so many mixed feelings about this idea that I do not know which are actually mine. I have had this phase before, when i a bit younger. I wanted to join the Army and everyone opinion on the Army was hate, and distrust and this and that about what they will do to you. So i didn’t do it. I didn’t do something because of what other people thought about it. The thing is, I agree, i believe that the Military wants to turn you into a drone and sell you out. But i also believe very strongly in my willpower, and my ability to hold on to who i am and my dream.

This is what i mean by Sacrificing a part of me in order to effectively obtain something of great value to me. All i can think about when I toss the options is this ; “Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is alchemy’s first Law of Equivalent Exchange.”

OK before i pass out i must end this. Share your thoughts. I know it doesnt sound like much. But it has been eating at me for months now. I needed to get it out and I really appreciate being able to voice it hear. Thank you for reading.

December 4, 2012 at 9:03 pm

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Profile photo of Alex Alex (@staylucky) 2 years, 1 month ago ago

I say take a little from everything and mesh them to make your own. I always find things I like about people I meet from all different walks of life and generally take something away with me. You just have to find a way to mould them into your belief system and apply them to the larger scale of life. You don’t have to go just one way :)

Profile photo of Cody Cody (@aliar) 2 years, 1 month ago ago

The key I am trying to get out there is Independence. or Co-independence rather..For us as a community to be able to support ourselves.

Profile photo of Alex Alex (@staylucky) 2 years, 1 month ago ago

@aliar, haha sorry when I initially replied your post was a lot shorter. will have another read over it later!

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